The Situation Posted December 23, 2013 Posted December 23, 2013 The tears are coming back. This is not good.
Author Riou Posted December 23, 2013 Author Posted December 23, 2013 Same here, saw a movie yesterday, and since then, feeling very dreadful. Let's hope all the unhappiness ends with 2013.. The tears are coming back. This is not good. How long since break and nc being for you?
im_thedude Posted December 23, 2013 Posted December 23, 2013 I still, over four months later, struggle to turn a new page. I'm lonely because of the void left from my relationship. I have very few friends, and the few I do have haven't been available or have been flakes, so besides work and the personal hobbies I do by myself, there is nothing to fill that void. I do have plans on filling that void by rejoining an adult league in hockey and taking a few community college classes, but those aren't things I can do *right now.*
Author Riou Posted December 24, 2013 Author Posted December 24, 2013 This time of the year seems to have a spell on me,rousing the melancholy in me..i just want time to quickly pass until feb..
JDPT Posted December 24, 2013 Posted December 24, 2013 Going on 8 months post brak up. I've been up since 5am and I'll like to think that I'm doing much better than yesterday. Had a bad nightmare the which ruined my day yesterday. Today is a better day and I have a choice to continue on this self pity path or make a turn for the better.
loveiswar101 Posted December 24, 2013 Posted December 24, 2013 Like warmed up poop and that's an overstatement. At least it's bed time and get few hours of rest and no pain.
Author Riou Posted December 25, 2013 Author Posted December 25, 2013 It's christmas already..time flies during nc,excited about log cake and turkey later..
MoooOinkBaaa Posted December 25, 2013 Posted December 25, 2013 Well didn't ever hear from her again, didn't think I would. It's been nearly four months. She's in love with someone else already and slept with someone so there's my Christmas present.
alexjames Posted December 25, 2013 Posted December 25, 2013 Been awful Today. Constantly thinking about both my ex's, thinking of how last year my christmas was the best I've ever had as I was with my GF at the time, and now she and my most recent ex are with new guys and spent their days with their new guys and I am alone...Cried throughout the day and not coping at all. Not going to be able to keep going much longer... :'(
blue_cosmos Posted December 25, 2013 Posted December 25, 2013 Not feeling great this Christmas because of all the ****. I just want to reconnect with him.... 3 months after the last NC I broke and now that I've sent my Christmas email and have obtained no reply, it feels like my hope has run empty. For 3 months, it's been on the back of my mind to reconnect with him, to get back in touch with him on the hope that who knows what would happen one day. Now I think he has found someone else and is happy and ignoring my email or has filtered them into junk mail... I feel empty.
SilverlinedCloud Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 I broke, I contacted him. Now we are speaking on n off.
Author Riou Posted December 26, 2013 Author Posted December 26, 2013 I broke, I contacted him. Now we are speaking on n off. Do you feel better after contacting?
SilverlinedCloud Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 Do you feel better after contacting? This is going to sound unorthodox, but yes I do.. To a certain degree. I cried, because it was a massive weight and burden off of my chest to know there do not appear to be any hard feelings. While I don't know what I want with him and while his mind is probably made up. That's still someone I care about immensely and I now know if after this experience of opening the channels to the ex again isn't or wasn't a great idea... Then I did what I had to do and it wouldn't have been a mistake. I had to get this negativity and reliving everything in the past off of me. Now the whole dreaded they stop replying has started to ensue but I'm not going to turn this into a game of who chases who. I'm going to continue my night doing what I was doing before I got brave. 1
Author Riou Posted December 26, 2013 Author Posted December 26, 2013 This is going to sound unorthodox, but yes I do.. To a certain degree. I cried, because it was a massive weight and burden off of my chest to know there do not appear to be any hard feelings. While I don't know what I want with him and while his mind is probably made up. That's still someone I care about immensely and I now know if after this experience of opening the channels to the ex again isn't or wasn't a great idea... Then I did what I had to do and it wouldn't have been a mistake. I had to get this negativity and reliving everything in the past off of me. Now the whole dreaded they stop replying has started to ensue but I'm not going to turn this into a game of who chases who. I'm going to continue my night doing what I was doing before I got brave. I don't think it sounds unorthodox,you are brave. 1
Author Riou Posted December 26, 2013 Author Posted December 26, 2013 Feeling intense sadness looking back at 2013..
StringsAttached Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 Feel horrible. My ex is not who I thought she was. So now i'm depressed because I lost the only girl i've ever loved but I know it's the right thing because she's a liar. God damn, if only I had never talked to her in the first place...
Author Riou Posted December 27, 2013 Author Posted December 27, 2013 I feel like being gone from this world today..
LadyM Posted December 27, 2013 Posted December 27, 2013 I feel like being gone from this world today.. When I feel like that, I force myself to remember that there is usually one or two little things that happen each day that reminds myself that I'm still glad I'm around to see or hear the event. Whether it is a good conversation with a friend, unexpected laughter, interesting gossip, yummy food....there is usually a break in the day like this when I'm not obsessively thinking about him. Besides, we'd miss you here so you can't be going anywhere.
Author Riou Posted December 27, 2013 Author Posted December 27, 2013 When I feel like that, I force myself to remember that there is usually one or two little things that happen each day that reminds myself that I'm still glad I'm around to see or hear the event. Whether it is a good conversation with a friend, unexpected laughter, interesting gossip, yummy food....there is usually a break in the day like this when I'm not obsessively thinking about him. Besides, we'd miss you here so you can't be going anywhere. I guess i just feel extremely tired..
LadyM Posted December 27, 2013 Posted December 27, 2013 I guess i just feel extremely tired.. Yeah, that makes everything worse. Compounds the misery. I hope you feel better soon!!
JDPT Posted December 27, 2013 Posted December 27, 2013 I feel somewhat ok today. The holidays are subliminally taking a tool on me, just want to get through this and start a fresh new year.
Author Riou Posted December 28, 2013 Author Posted December 28, 2013 Yeah, that makes everything worse. Compounds the misery. I hope you feel better soon!! Yea.Thanks..
Author Riou Posted December 28, 2013 Author Posted December 28, 2013 Feeling better today..hope new year will be a good one.
LadyM Posted December 28, 2013 Posted December 28, 2013 Feeling better today..hope new year will be a good one. That is wonderful! And it will be a good New Year. I mean, really, how much worse can this next year be?!!
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