sothereiwas Posted September 28, 2020 Posted September 28, 2020 It is what it is. I'm just, as the man said, playing my little piano and singing my little song.
Datingdisabled Posted September 28, 2020 Posted September 28, 2020 (edited) No man and no person is worth your life. I finally made it back to work and when I got home, I puked blood and spit blood. I've been tasting copper and spitting blood and I will say that no one was worth it. Edited September 28, 2020 by Datingdisabled
sothereiwas Posted September 29, 2020 Posted September 29, 2020 (edited) I was there last night when he took his last breath. I was there when he closed his eyes the last time. I hated it, but I'm proud to have had the privilege to know him. Edited September 29, 2020 by sothereiwas
d0nnivain Posted September 29, 2020 Posted September 29, 2020 2 hours ago, sothereiwas said: I was there last night when he took his last breath. I was there when he closed his eyes the last time. I hated it, but I'm proud to have had the privilege to know him. @sothereiwas I am so sorry for your loss. 1 1
MeadowFlower Posted October 4, 2020 Posted October 4, 2020 It's nice when someone values your opinion. And it's nice when someone believes in you. 1
homecoming Posted October 4, 2020 Posted October 4, 2020 Haven't posted in a while... I still think of my ex all the time, but at the same time have no urges to make contact which I feel is progress. This time last year I was completely distraught and in a totally different place altogether! So that's good, I guess. Still not in a place where I'm considering dating or seeing anyone else, but I think that's a good thing. This is the longest I've gone without even 'talking' to anyone or thinking about trying to find a relationship, and while it's very lonely at times, it's actually less stressful and I'm getting to know myself... which is something I should have done years ago, lol. 2
MeadowFlower Posted October 13, 2020 Posted October 13, 2020 (edited) Human relationships and me go about as well together as a cat and water. Also, feeling a little bit not myself. Edited October 13, 2020 by MeadowFlower
Ruby Slippers Posted October 14, 2020 Posted October 14, 2020 The cooler weather is making me miss cuddles. I could probably have a date tomorrow, but I want to reach a personal goal before dating again. Cat cuddles help 1
Gaeta Posted December 9, 2020 Posted December 9, 2020 I'm holding it together but it wouldn't take much for me to break down. My neighbor came to tell me to move my car and tears came up to my eyes, today my boss gave me a critic (over the phone) and I had to breath deep to not start crying. I do my crying when I'm alone in the car going back and forth to work. If you see a brunette next to you on the highway crying her heart out in her car....it's me. 1
MeadowFlower Posted December 26, 2020 Posted December 26, 2020 Feeling jealous or something not cool.
Fox Sake Posted January 25, 2021 Posted January 25, 2021 I’m literally managing myself with an iron fist and a velvet glove. Build -burn-build. I just want my tigger like spark back. I see it every now and again... Coping is the operative word. But why... it’s self inflicted and a choice... I know this but...it’s dark, where’s the switch? It’s been by torchlight since that very bright summer. This self depreciation is getting old. Hermitic tendencies have been as self destructive as they have healing these years. It’s like a set of scales but the balance has shifted instead of becoming an equaliser. Tides of battles and attacks against the ego, the self. Followed by small amounts of self appreciation, and a feeling of a higher sense of self...before over analysing myself to the enth degree. Build burn build burn ...Is it worth it? Why do I?
littleblackheart Posted January 25, 2021 Posted January 25, 2021 1 hour ago, Fox Sake said: I’m literally managing myself with an iron fist and a velvet glove. Build -burn-build. I just want my tigger like spark back. I see it every now and again... I'm so sorry you're feeling that way @Fox Sake I don't know that it'll help, but many of us are just 'coping' at the moment. What helps me move past it (sometimes) is to remember that what I am going through is nothing compared to others, but even that doesn't always help. I won't give you trite clichés about 'bouncing back' and 'focusing on the positive', and 'working on being less self-depreciated' (I'm there with you) because you just have to feel how you feel right now and work your way out of it in your own time. I don't know what your circumstances are but hope you do find a way to find your tigger spark back. It's still in there somewhere . 1
MeadowFlower Posted January 27, 2021 Posted January 27, 2021 (edited) I have a weighted knot inside. Edited January 27, 2021 by MeadowFlower
Fox Sake Posted January 28, 2021 Posted January 28, 2021 On 1/25/2021 at 10:54 PM, littleblackheart said: I'm so sorry you're feeling that way @Fox Sake I don't know that it'll help, but many of us are just 'coping' at the moment. What helps me move past it (sometimes) is to remember that what I am going through is nothing compared to others, but even that doesn't always help. I won't give you trite clichés about 'bouncing back' and 'focusing on the positive', and 'working on being less self-depreciated' (I'm there with you) because you just have to feel how you feel right now and work your way out of it in your own time. I don't know what your circumstances are but hope you do find a way to find your tigger spark back. It's still in there somewhere . Just wanted to say thank you for the post the other day. You worded it like you knew me! Things turned a small corner the day after that.. I truly believe it wasn’t all my doing , someone else definitely sent me some thoughtful good vibes... So thank you 1
Fox Sake Posted January 28, 2021 Posted January 28, 2021 3 hours ago, MeadowFlower said: I have a weighted knot inside. Chin up! Take a few deep breaths... inhale that positivity and peace and exhale the tension and any negativity:) On 1/3/2021 at 12:08 AM, MeadowFlower said: I dislike the friendzone. I know things can be read in a different tone , but this was an epic and powerful yet comic statement! 1
MeadowFlower Posted January 28, 2021 Posted January 28, 2021 2 hours ago, Fox Sake said: Chin up! Take a few deep breaths... inhale that positivity and peace and exhale the tension and any negativity:) Thanks @Fox Sake, nice of you. 2 hours ago, Fox Sake said: I know things can be read in a different tone , but this was an epic and powerful yet comic statement! Lol. Sigh....
littleblackheart Posted January 28, 2021 Posted January 28, 2021 2 hours ago, Fox Sake said: Things turned a small corner the day after that.. I truly believe it wasn’t all my doing , someone else definitely sent me some thoughtful good vibes... So thank you Glad to hear this .
homecoming Posted February 5, 2021 Posted February 5, 2021 I still don't quite understand how someone could just drop you in a split second, then refuse to talk to you, when you haven't even done anything wrong. I hate that you can't even message them and say how you feel, because it will only hurt and they'll only ignore you or act like they don't know you. The amount of times I've thought; well let me just say how I feel - but had to stop myself because I know it won't do anything, and will probably make me feel worse. It's like a no-win situation. 1
Beachead Posted February 6, 2021 Posted February 6, 2021 (edited) @homecoming I know how you feel. I don't know the specifics of your situation but providing some general insight, one of 3 situations: 1. It's all on you. They tried to talk to you several times, but you weren't receptive, and so they got tired and left. 2. It's on the both of you. They tried to talk to you but you weren't receptive..but they themselves couldn't communicate how they felt well enough either. So ultimately some mutual communication incompatibilities got in the way. 3. It's largely on them if not all on them. They weren't entirely honest with you about who they were, what they wanted, what they needed. Maybe they themselves didn't know. Whatever it was, they misled you to believe they were someone they were not. Having to lie was exhausting because it required the maintenance of more lies which required even more lies on top of that. You by the consequence of their own personal issues, became a drain and an obligation to be around and they became depleted. They became a horrible person to be around as a result which caused confusion and misunderstandings and fights. Stonewalling. Loneliness. They inevitably left and it was relieving to them, as they no longer had to pretend to be someone they were not. They blamed you for it because it was easy. Talking to you only reminds them of what they did or who they used to be, so they cut you out. Either way..they're gone aren't they? Edited February 6, 2021 by Beachead
Cheryl123 Posted February 11, 2021 Posted February 11, 2021 you can't play GOD, although you might try
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