jellybean89 Posted November 23, 2014 Share Posted November 23, 2014 Don't think about tomorrow...focus on today. And you are right, breaking NC won't do anything except hurt you more. You WILL get through this. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author I'mNotYours Posted December 6, 2014 Author Share Posted December 6, 2014 I was just reading my thread "How to survive Christmas", which I wrote almost a year ago. I was in a different place back then...a worse place than today. There's been some breaking of NC since then and really bad moments, and I have been sad and angry. And I've missed him so much and wanted him to return to me. Not long ago I was doing some self reflection and couldn't believe how I could end up as the OW (I made a thread about it). It was just another step on my way to moving on.. And today it hit me: I don't want him anymore. It's a feeling and thought that has grown for a while. And it took SO long to get here! Yes, I haven't been so in love before and after I met him, and he's still a beautiful, smart, funny and caring man. I don't hate ham and I'm not angry with him. I care about him...but I'm glad he's not mine. I would never trust him, and every time he came late home from work or was at a party, I would worry he was with someone else. It would cause me too much stress. Well..that's how I feel today. Maybe I'll have a breakdown, when Christmas comes near, who knows, but today this is how I feel. I just wanted to share it with you Link to post Share on other sites
GoldenAxe Posted December 6, 2014 Share Posted December 6, 2014 Glad to hear it! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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