Chris715 Posted August 13, 2013 Posted August 13, 2013 For anyone interested in my story: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/398620-she-just-used-me-hurts http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/403351-seriously-just-done-feeling-suicidal http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/408348-well-now-s-pretty-much-done Anyway, that's the general background for this whole big ugly thing that's been going on since November. Today was the last day that I work with my ex girlfriend this summer. She's leaving out of state for school in less than a week and probably isn't going to be back next year (she probably will get an internship at her college she goes to next summer) I thought I would be overjoyed. After all she's only caused me more pain and stress this summer after I attempted to mend things with her, but I'm feeling terrible today. Once my shift ended it was a realization that that's the last time I may ever see her, or at least for a very long time and I'm incredibly depressed. If I thought she cared I would at the very least call her, tell her to have a safe trip and a good school year, and that I'm going to miss her. But I don't think she does, so I'm probably going to leave it be and be ****ing miserable.
JDPT Posted August 13, 2013 Posted August 13, 2013 Don't be so hard on yourself man, I view it as a legitimate reason to leave which is for school, although I understand it hurts like hell nonetheless. But think about what you wrote "she's only caused me more pain and stress" analyze this objectively and internalize what really occurred. We all tend to sugar coat reality with the "wonderful moments" we spend together with our ex. Come to terms that she is gone, and wish her well by saying that I don't meant to contact her but just for yourself, let her go and wish her well in life. And start your recovery process. You will come out of this a new and improved you.
Author Chris715 Posted August 13, 2013 Author Posted August 13, 2013 I know you're right man, just wish it wasn't so hard. And I always wish I could have a real, pleasant goodbye with her with a sense of closure, but I know that's not realistic... And I wish I could get her back, but I know that's even more unrealistic. Still struggling to let go after 9 months...
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