I ended a relationship with a guy I really liked, but I"m okay. I just wish that I could leave and he'd still want me. Maybe it's selfish but I need to feel safe when I'm mad or things get too overwhelming, I need to know that I'm safe enough to leave, you know. I just need to feel safe. It's okay. It has to be okay. 

And I really I hate that it has to be. I really liked him and it sucks that I have to deal with LIFE. I have to deal with it and I don't think I should let someone deal with it with me. It's wrong. I don't want that. Because it can be hurtful and abusive and I WANT TO YELL and scream and I don't want to do that to them. So I run. I escape and maybe I shouldn't break up with them, but if I tell someone, hey, I'm going through this and I need space, I need time, I don't need you with me. I don't. I just need an outlet an escape that's all. I don't know what to do. But it's okay. I miss him, but it wasn't anything special, it was just a moment. A time. That's all. 

Enjoy the holidays!!

Y'all be blessed.