darkhome Posted January 16, 2007 Share Posted January 16, 2007 Ok, first off, let me introduce mysekf, my name is Emanuel, i'm new here, and I suffer from OCD(obsessive compulsive disorder) This is called the "doubting disease" I'm always questioning and wondering about trivial things or about basic things in life that cause me anxiety. One of my newer doubts, unfortunately, is my sexuality. I have always been aroused by women, In my soul, I know I only want to be with a woman, marry her ect. I only want to have sex with a woman, BUT out of the blue, my mind is telling me "i could be gay deep down." I have never had a male sexual experience, and I don't want one either, but in my distress, I always feel compelled to test myself due to my desperate need to be a hundred percent sure, to see if i'm really gay or not, so now, for example, if i see Brad Pitt (which all men would probably acknowledge in general is a good-looking guy) I take it further than that and wonder if i'm attracted to him ect. Then I purposely fantasize about him and me to see if i get hard (which I don't when i'm not touching it) I don't seem to ever get aroused to erection when I simply force myself to fantasize about doing stuff with men without touching it, but I always do when I think about doing stuff with women without touching it, and lately that has been my proof i'm straight, BUT just this morning I decided to test and see if i can get hard and maybe even ejaculate by actually touching it this time and stroking it while i was fantasizing about another man, to my dismay I did get hard and I knew if i continued I would of eventually climaxed. Now, I have read that whether people would like to admit it or not that there are truly no 100 percent straight and 100 percent gay people, that we all follow a spectrum according to the famous sex researcher Kinsey, even if its something as lopsided as 95 percent towards women 5 percent towards men, that most people, the majority, are bisexuals by ORIENATIONS to some degree, but either heterosexual or homosexual by PREFERENCE. So, is it really worth it getting so worked up over that experience I had? I'm sure straight women get aroused and even masturbate to women, like when you see in a movie, a girl who is pretty much straight having no qualms about making out with a girl and stuff during a threesome scene, so why is it so taboo for men? My friend is a laid back guy and he says if hypothetically he ever gets aroused by a man he'd just be like "hey, i guess guys can make me hard sometimes, go figure, and kinda laughed and said "oh well, i still like women though" and shrugged it off and that was that. I wish I could be that laid back about things, but I tend to freak out. Basically, all I'm asking for is if anyone else has gone through what I have, and if its normal for a straight man to be sexually aroused by another man, either by touching it or not(it refering to the penis of course) but not choose to want to be that way and be perfectly content in all that knowledge. thank you. Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 20, 2007 Share Posted January 20, 2007 Well, Not Sure If This Helps But I Enjoy Learning About My Partner. I Like To Be Able To Know That I Can Tell What She Might Like Before She Tells Me. For Example - Some Women Have A Certain Visual Perference For How A Man Looks, Maybe How His Package Looks, And I Have No Problem Saying Stuff To My Gurlfriend. In Fact, A Long Time Ago When We Were Discovering Our Likes And Dislikes I Would Download A Short Vid And See If She Thought The Same Way. We Have Always Tried Toexpand What Sexuklaity Means To Us -because Sexuality Takes A Lifetime To Learn, Discover And Enjoy. Let Me Give U An Example - Once I Saw A Vid Of A Guy And A Woman Having Intercourse, And I Thought If I Was A Woman The Guys Penis, Would Be Something Along The Lines Of What I Would Like - So, I Showed Her Without Saying Anything To Hear Her Reaction - There Is Something Truly Hot And Exciting About Being With Someone When The Open Up To You. So, For Me, I Have No Probs With The Male Body But What Excites Me Is My Gfs Reaction. Anyhooo, I Showed It To Her And She Said....gawd All These Things Are Just Male Cock Movies...and I Felt Kinda Goofy. So, I Asked Her Want She Would Find Exciting - And I Never Would Have Guessed But Was Happy She Trusted Me And Showed Me. And That Was Special And Kewl. Never Been With Someone That Is So Fearless As She Is. And I Honestly Believe I Would Do Anything With Her Link to post Share on other sites
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