love1336x Posted July 10, 2014 Posted July 10, 2014 Today not a good day. I check your facebook, you seem so happy... I love your smile. I am so tempted to break NC and text you, "It is bad to say you look cute on your profile pic?" But, then you would know... then you will see... I care... and blah. Damn I WILL SHOW YOU ANY TYPE OF EMOTIONS. I have to be a BRICK WALL. I have to NOT give a CRAP! My heart has to become ICE. My heart has to BECOME SOLID! Because let's face it... if i do show ANY type of emotions toward you will RUN & RUN. I need my pride at least! I have a broken heart, but having lost pride will be WORSE! 1
Alcatraz Posted July 10, 2014 Posted July 10, 2014 Still get tingles when I see or hear her name. I want to forget.
Shields boy Posted July 11, 2014 Posted July 11, 2014 Feeling better as I have left the country for a few days to get some sunshine. Relaxing night and accepting she will not get in touch and take me back. I was thinking the girl does not deserve my love and that I will get well and meet someone better in the next 2 years. I'm going to make sure that I will make her suffer the heartbreak and regret that I have been through one day. Still dreamt about her all night and is on my mind though once I have awaken. I have booked a therapist next week and looking forward to it. Hopefully this will help me finally let go of my only love in my life and move on and forget her.
Amy74 Posted July 11, 2014 Posted July 11, 2014 He called me this morning--5am, this morning. Who does that? Typical of him--who cares if I'm sleeping or getting ready for work--HE has something to say. I answered because the phone was ringing and my 4yo was sleeping next to me. I guess I could have just declined the call or silenced it-- but I had been sleeping and wasn't thinking clearly. (I know I should have blocked him weeks ago *shrug*) He didn't mention that it was the one month anniversary of our break-up. He did mention several times that he missed me--that was nice I guess. I of course said I missed him too. He told me some stories about things he saw or did that reminded him of me---random stuff. Then I heard my son get out of bed and I cut him off and told him I had to go. I told him that I love him and to have a good trip--he leaves on Sunday for a week. I had been in a good place--moving on--dating--feeling better--thinking of him less & less. He must have sensed that.
Patr Posted July 11, 2014 Posted July 11, 2014 Best friends for 3-4 years, relationship for 20 months years. Said she loved me until the moment she broke up with me to be single. We broke up 18 may. 11 days NC. Yesterday was the hardest because it would've been our anniversary. I actually feel a lot better with myself and I'm starting to be me again, the confident me. I've been talking to some girls to get my mind of her but I'm far from ready for anything physical or emotional. Being in a job that I enjoy has helped me so much. I don't miss the relationship, I miss my best friend.
Oregon_Dude Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Went on a date tonight. Pretty sure she didn't like me. That's ok! I'm getting out there and meeting people. Next girl might be someone more similar to me. I have another date Sunday, let's see what happens. 1
Hoosfoos Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Not well. I guess you could say that I'm in the anger stage of grief; although it feels more like homicidal rage. 1
furby58 Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 in all honesty , not that great .. I was walking home with couple of mates last night and saw my ex driving with his new h** ..i think that was the final nail to the coffin for me . it hurts like hell .
soifnaegvbaoeaiegoaobgaiou Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Hanging out with my previous ex, the ex before my newest ex. I don't have feelings for her anymore so it's really nice to have someone who knows how I love and hurt and feel to talk to. I also just started keeping a notebook nearby when I'm at home and whenever I get upset I just write down my emotions in it. Or when I'm feeling particularly nostalgic I'll write down a happy memory or quirk of hers. The biggest thing is just constantly spending time with my friends and plunging myself into new hobbies and reviving old hobbies.
sugarlove Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 I took off my rose-tinted glasses today and it seems that life is so much more colourful and lively without him around. I no longer feel guilty and no longer blame him for the things that went wrong in this. 1
Xemyd Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 I wish I hadn't woken up today, I wouldn't honestly rather live in my dreams where you're there than in reality. My dream last night was perfect, it was as if you never wanted to let me go. Too bad you did. I still don't understand, and I never will, we were so good. Why did he never tell me the distance was getting harder on him. Why did he just let things fall apart and then break it off. Things got tough and he walked away, I didn't.
WhiskeyJack Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Found out last night that he is "somewhat seeing someone". So basically I wasn't in a good place last night. But it was the final push I needed to go complete NC. All in all today I'm doing ok. 1
scobro Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 It seems hard to take my own advice I give on here.Its easier to comment on other peoples situation rationally than my own. 1
ThatOneGuyThat Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 So I've been NC for over 2 months, single for over 2 and a half. I have grown alot, I have realised even more that I don't need someone else and am happy by myself. However still get bouts of loneliness, this is where hanging around with friends is very important. In fact I just came back from a holiday in which I had a great time, talking to new people, making new friends, getting lucky. All of these things have further improved my confidence and cannot stress more to someone that you should be brave and talk to people. Don't expect anything, just try to talk to someone new, you never know what happens. However, right now I feel like something is going to crawl through the wood work and knock me down a bit, I had a close call with some information about my ex, and also saw a photo of her from Prom (And yes she is blocked on everything as well as her friends, it was just happen-stance). She has not attempted to contact me in those 2 months, although that does make me question what we had, in some ways I'm glad, there is no temptation to reply. I have no idea how her relationship is going, and that makes me glad. Ignorance truly is bliss. Over the past few months I have also been going to the gym everyday and working out a lot, and it is great. Everyone do this. 1
Xemyd Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 It's only noon but I've felt like an emotional zombie all day so far. I have no will to even get out of bed, I'm fighting back tears every 5 minutes. I refuse to let myself cry over him anymore. No amount of tears will bring him back.
freebird31 Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 My ex accidentally liked one of my photos, while he was most likely stalking my profile. I just made it public a couple days. I think this is so hilarious. He obviously unliked it bc I went to update it and his "like" was gone. Lol! This is a total ego boost. Aha. Go ahead and see how happy my life is becoming, I don't mind lmao. 2
iheartgoodmusic Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Wish that I could hit rewind, go a different path. I hate the way this feels.
scobro Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Wish that I could hit rewind, go a different path. I hate the way this feels. You essentially can and this will not help but it really is all in your mind... Your mind always uses emotions as a method to motivate you to avoid things that could harm you and to embrace things that could please you. If you used to love a person then you broke up with him then your mind will do its best to bring you back together. Unfortunately your mind can't do anything more than sending you a motivating emotion and in this case the motivating emotion is depression!!! It’s as if your subconscious mind is telling you, I won’t let you enjoy any of your normal life activities until you bring back the relation with that person. This may sound weird but its not. It’s just a method of motivation that your mind uses. If you want not to experience these bad emotions of depression then fix the problem your subconscious mind is notifying you about.Which could be fear,abandonment or any traits you know you are dealing with or have issues with. I know this doesn't help but it really is how your subconscious mind and conscious mind relate to what has happened that determines how you feel. 1
scobro Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 its like that saying "nothing is good or bad until thought happens" 1
Justaguy30 Posted July 12, 2014 Posted July 12, 2014 Today has been tough on me. It seems like everyone has someone in their life and I don't. I guess I miss my ex because I was really looking forward to spending the summer with her. I pretty much just feel the need to have someone in my life. I am really lonely and am sick of just hanging with friends. I miss having a GF.
love1336x Posted July 13, 2014 Posted July 13, 2014 I am coping beautifully! I stop checking my ex new girlfriend twitter. I have never check his fb after our break up. I'm over all happy and at peace with myself. Things didn't work out for a reason. I hope to have more days like this.
hermitinator Posted July 13, 2014 Posted July 13, 2014 People often say that with time, you will heal, but I feel that with time, my feelings for him intensify. At best, I will have two weeks to myself and I will be at peace. I will believe that I am okay. Still, with the two week stands that I have been having, they are passionless and there is no connection. Even though, I am attracted to these men, they cannot give me the basics of my last relationship. This week, I discovered that he was back in jail again for his second DUI. Even though, this is a clue that this is a type of man that I don't need in my life, that I am better, but I worry about him.
Oregon_Dude Posted July 13, 2014 Posted July 13, 2014 At the moment I am fine. She was not the One, she sucked, she annoyed me. She feels she won by leaving me. Fine, let her win. Tomorrow will be a different story. 1
sugarlove Posted July 13, 2014 Posted July 13, 2014 ABout 3 months 1 week after BU, feeling okay at the moment. In fact, I just woke up today not wanting him back at all. Which is a release because for a while I was going back and forth with missing him and worrying about him. But I'm enjoying my alone time.. getting back to what i was doing before he came into my life. 1
elseaacych Posted July 13, 2014 Posted July 13, 2014 The hardest part of breaking up is realizing that you can no longer express your love for that person or to that person, and living with that feeling every day. 2
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