Author Riou Posted April 14, 2014 Author Posted April 14, 2014 (edited) Feeling totally emotionally drained I have felt that way at times but for a long time now i have not felt that way at all so it does get better for everyone. Edited April 14, 2014 by Riou 2
freebird31 Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 I am glad where everything is at right now. I finally feel like I can actually live up to my loveshack name now--freebird. lol. I really do finally feel free. i feel like i was locked in this cage all these months bc the way the relationship ended left me feeling hopeful. But i feel like even tho my ex replied a short response, it was enough for me to finally move on. i feel like my ex told me to move on in other words when he said he wished nothing but the best for me too. I feel like im at the beginning of a new road to healing now. A different road than i was on before. I finally can no longer hold on to false hope. i feel like he has let me go now, now i have to let him go. i feel a peace and calmness, something i havent felt in a while. i feel good. I am glad i reached out and took control myself, without even knowing i was doing that. Im happy. 1
zodiark11 Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 Been NC since last year October/November maybe? I forgot and I really don't care anymore. I remember posting about my breakup here before. Life is okay. Done all the things I always wanted to do (Marathon, building foam costumes, have fun alone, even started singing). Wanted to try boxing this time and traveling alone but ever since I started working, I have less freedom (Working in service industry as Banquet team). Learned a lot from my past mistakes and learned something new day by day Yep, I'm alone... Well, not really. I have 2 best colleague at work (Dudes), my school friends are all busy with their jobs/studies/too far/changed. Wish I have girl friends but there's none here xD Most of them are way too old 1
Jatli Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 I am not doing well. It has been 2 weeks 2 days since BU and 1 week 1 day since last contact. I am not sleeping well, I have a pit in my stomach that will not go away, I feel like crying all the time. I find myself hoping that he is as miserable as I am. I just don't know. I sometimes think he has to be miserable as well and then other times I think that he is probably not even thinking about me. We were together for 4 years and living together for almost as long. He needed "space", I moved out. He cried. We got along so well, never fought, always laughed, always enjoyed each others company, sex was great. I think there may be the idea of someone else but I don't think she is around right now. I think that he did meet someone that he has known for a long time and they had been just friends and the idea with her seemed like a good idea but I don't think he is with her right now. I actually think she is away somewhere right now. But when she gets back I think he is going to try on a new pair of shoes. I hope those shoes don't fit. 1
STM206 Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 It's been over 3 months since you left and just over 2 weeks since we last emailed each other. I apologized for the wrongdoings I did and hoped that you would see that my heart still belonged to you... But I know he's probably having the time of his life with his new lover... And that I'm not even a blip on his radar anymore. He blocked me on facebook, and hasn't once since the breakup initiated any type of conversation. It just hurts knowing we spent 4 amazing years together and now he doesn't even care anymore... He simply doesn't care. How did that happen? How did we go from talking about not knowing what to do if we ever lost each other to not even talking anymore... Not even a "hi, I hope you are well"... Nothing. So my days are rough, I miss what we had. The sun is shining today and you would think it would lift my spirits, but it still feels the same... Because I'm not able to take a trip to the park with him. I hope this passes soon, I hope that I'll feel indifferent and you won't matter to me anymore like you once did... Because I simply don't matter to you.
elseaacych Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 I had a couple of those moments today: those "I am never going to go back to him and it feels awesome," moments. Then there was the guilty twinge. Then the melancholy took over. Because I know I still care. If I didn't care, I wouldn't be studying in public, dressed to the nines, trying to attract attention. I would be sitting in my silent corner of the library, studying, and trying to get my work done. I do care, but it's only about me right now, not him. I need to get out and make new contacts and friends. I wish I came to this conclusion, but not from this course of events.
FrostBlaze Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 (edited) Bad bad day... Tired, from work. Looking for music on youtube. Ran into slow sad instrumental violin and piano songs, got me reminescing and sad. I miss her badly now, i haven't felt like this since like the initial breakup, almost feel like crying, much like then. I'm shedding a few tears on my cheek and am angry. It's not exactly crying, silent tears, hm. Accompanied by small chest pains from anxiety or something....god, what a bad night. It just came out of nowhere. Edited April 15, 2014 by FrostBlaze
elseaacych Posted April 16, 2014 Posted April 16, 2014 I'm suddenly feeling very lonely and tense. I don't feel like I can ever be the same again, I just feel so hurt. So lonely. There are so many things I would do to have him back, even though he was far from perfect.
Haynes Posted April 16, 2014 Posted April 16, 2014 My partner of 2.5 years ended our relationship in February this year (two days after valentines day. Ouch!) I'm coping ok. I haven't cried for a few days now, so that's good. I still think about him pretty much all of the time though. I do try to engage in other activities to distract myself, but he's often there, at the back of my mind. It doesn't help that I'm currently unemployed. I have way too much time on my hands. It'll be one month of complete NC for me in a few days time. I suppose I should be quite proud of that Upon reflection, and in hindsight, I can see that there was blame on both sides and that we just weren't a compatible match at this point in time. I'm far from perfect and I recognize that I have issues of my own that I need to work on. I sort of wish that I could tell him that, as we ended things with a letter to each other, placing a lot of blame and there was an air of bitterness in both of our letters. Obviously I won't say any of this to him at this moment in time, or I'd be destroying any progress we've both made with NC. I would like to tell him one day though, maybe in 6 months or a years time, when we've both healed. I forgive him and I forgive myself. I hope that he's happy and I wish him well. 1
BC1980 Posted April 16, 2014 Posted April 16, 2014 I broke NC. After 7 months. Don't beat yourself up over it. Take it as a lesson learned. 1
BlueIris Posted April 16, 2014 Posted April 16, 2014 Monday was my 54th birthday, alone. Tuesday I called a man I was dating to ask if he knew anyone I could hire as a part time secretary and he said he wanted the job, but doesn’t want to date me. I hired him. I do need a secretary. I have an intense job, my own law practice that is growing and increasingly successful. I spend all day with employees and clients that I provide support to and must be strong for, but I have no one to hold or to hold me, to cook with or curl up with, to be happy for and comfort, or to receive that from. Today, I feel so lonely and wonder if anyone will ever want to love me or view me as someone he could love. I think I’ll go to the golf course and practice. I’m learning to golf but the man who was teaching me is now my secretary, so I will go alone. And on top of it, I feel like a whiney bitch whimpering about a first world problem. Thanks for having this place to cry a little.
Haynes Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 Last night I was not good. I miss him so much. I can't imagine him not being in my life any more. He told me when we split that he wants to be my friend, but I now have this fear that when I finally reach out to him again after time has passed and we've both healed, he'll reject my hand in friendship too! Nights are truly the WORST. I get so lonely at night time and all of the negative thoughts about myself and my life rear their ugly head. I feel *slightly* better today because the sun is out. I'm sure it'll all change again when the sun goes down.
Drez Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 day 9 of NC after a 7.5 year relationship...still feel numb, like it's a dream/outer body experience...mates keep telling me to sign up with tinder and hook up with random girls, this is the last thing on my mind at the moment.
David87 Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 day 9 of NC after a 7.5 year relationship...still feel numb, like it's a dream/outer body experience...mates keep telling me to sign up with tinder and hook up with random girls, this is the last thing on my mind at the moment. Why don't you make a thread about your breakup? 1
todreaminblue Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 i am surprisingly ok...sad but ok......not sleeping well i get a new bed next week so ill catch up then.....deb
Drez Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 Why don't you make a thread about your breakup? I rather not bro. I was kind of expecting the split...last couple of years we became more like friends, sex life was pretty much non-existent, just thought things would sort themselves out in the end, luckily she had the balls to call it quits before marriage, house, kides etc....still hurts like hell scariest thing is being single at 33..lol
STM206 Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 "The ignorance of first love is that it came never end" The quote couldn't be anymore true... Everything felt so perfect (aside from a few flaws that could've easily been worked on had he actually communicated them to me instead of running away). It just hurts to think 4 years of my life I had my best friend, lover and partner by my side and now I can't even call him to say hi. It's unreal, I wish I would wake up from a nightmare and find him laying here next to me. I can't even think about finding this kind of love again... Once you feel like you've had perfect, can anything else ever compare?
smileforelena Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 SAD...not feeling good about myself right now...when is this going to end...please
redbaron005 Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 Feeling extraordinarily crushed and regretful today.
dudeguy56 Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 Hmm, I've made multiple threads on this website sobbing about what not. I suppose it'd be nice to just write what I'm thinking/feeling right now. Even if every week I change my mind and all... I'm fairly convinced she doesn't like me but not completely sure because she hasn't specifically told me. No matter what she thinks of me my self esteem is **** and I need to do something about that. I'm trying to do things such as eat healthier, think optimistically, listen to optimistic music, take walks, have fun etc. It's hard though, I've put her on a pedestal and I can't get her off it, mostly because I value her so much more than myself. I want to talk to someone. I did tell my friend who knows this girl as well but he didn't know what I should do either. On top of that I've been kind of suspitious that she might like him because they're going to take ballet classes together. He did tell me he didn't like her and after I asked him to, he promised that he'd tell me if he ever developed feelings for her. There's another friend I have who knows of the girl I like but they don't really hang out. The thing is, this friend is a girl so she might have a point of view a boy couldn't deliver. I'm not comfortable asking the girl I like out. I'm a shy person and while I try to push myself I'm just not ready to do something like that. The only way she'll know how I feel is if I tell her but then the moment has to feel right. We've known each other for five months now so I wonder IF I ever had a chance I might've blown it by now. Either way, as I said I'm fairly convinced she doesn't feel the same and I'd really want to stay friends. That's why I'm apprehensive about telling her. Right now there are two things I'm doing/considering. I'm trying to boost my self esteem, thus getting her off that pedestal and might actually not be nervous and rigid in her presence. If I manage to that I can finally be ME. Secondly, I'm considering telling another friend about the situation so that I can talk a bit more about it. It's been really hard and rough. I hope it'll be over soon. :/
Haynes Posted April 17, 2014 Posted April 17, 2014 Feeling ok tonight. Keeping myself busy by studying courses online I know deep down that I'm going to be fine eventually. I'm going to have my good days and my bad days but I'll get through it! Also, 1 month of NC today! 1
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