How are you coping today?

[divegrl]

Losing your job must have been a shock, on top of everything else.

 

I'm sorry you're going trough that. I lost my job, too.

 

When it happened it felt like someone kicked me when I was already down. I felt lost too. I felt like I didn't know what to do.

 

But, the way I see it now, it's an opportunity, a chance to find something better, to do something better and find someone better.

 

Everything's going to be okay. Keep your chin up. You sound like a strong person.

 

One day at a time.

 

One day at a time.

 

Thank you logo for your kind response. I had tears reading this. I'm so sorry you had to go thru this too. It's an awful feeling. I read one of your other posts where u mention staying in the present.... which is very hard, but has been helping me.

 

I don't have a lot of words tonight, but thank you again. I hope you and everyone on this thread is able to find a little bit of joy tonight amidst all the pain.

[Trinity_84]

Today I realized my ex - on the outside a very generous, loving, friendly & charming person - is also a narcissist. I keep waiting for him to apologize for that final phone call where he belittled and insulted me.

 

I apologized to him for going NC without a word (I felt bad about it, because I am a sensitive person and when others have done it to me I always wanted them to apologize or at least explain why, so that's what I did).

 

But today I realized he's a narcissist. He will never apologize, it would mean he had to admit to another that he's imperfect, not as self-confident and intelligent as he wants everyone to believe he is. He probably mourned the loss of his #1 admirer (the girl who moved to another country to live in *his* world, who had a crush on him since day 1, who did everything for him), but not the loss of Trinity84, the beautiful, talented, loving and caring woman that ran away from him cause he was such a self-centered t**t.

 

Oh well. Bygones are bygones. It feels good to write this stuff out here. My best friend is probably tired of hearing about it by now

[StrangerThanFiction]

I texted my ex a couple days ago. We chatted back and forth, there was some mild flirting, then it was over. I've had no desire to reach out or hear from him since. I don't know what prompted me to do it in the first place really, and I don't regret it. The way we talk to each other now compared to when we were together is different. I can feel the distance between us, both emotionally and physically. I don't think I'll be hearing from him again and I don't think I'll be reaching out again. I can tell he's moved on with his life and despite believing I wouldn't I can feel myself moving on as well. I mentioned in an earlier post that I felt that we had some sort of unfinished business or something between us and I feel now that maybe this last text conversation was it. It felt like an ending. Yes, it does hurt a little that someone who had meant so much to me is relegated back to, if not quite a stranger, than a distant acquaintance, but I know this is how it has to be.

 

I'm still not over him entirely, I'll admit that, but every day that passes gets me closer to that. I kind've wonder though if what it'll take for me to be completely over him is finding out for sure that he won't be coming back to my province in the spring for work. The potential for him coming back is always in the back of my mind and with it there's a very tiny hope that he'll want me back. I wouldn't open that can of worms again but I suppose there's still part of me that wants the chance to turn him down...or to feel that I wasn't as easy to get over as he's made it seem. Damn my ego. But there does seem to be a very real likelihood that he'll be staying in his home province. The thought brings me vast relief but also some sadness. On the one hand, I won't have to worry about seeing him with another woman and having my heart torn open again or have him play with my feelings. On the other, the thought of never seeing him again and having him become a stranger fully makes me sad. I guess we'll see what the spring brings.

 

I wish I knew why he's effected me so strongly after only being in a relationship for 6 months. He wasn't a particularly good boyfriend, he lied constantly, he cheated on me, he had very questionable morals, he seemed incapable of making good life decisions, all of my friends (and his) thought he was a dbag, and he was crap with finances. But I loved him in spite of all that because...I don't know. How he made me feel? Maybe he just played me that well. Hmm. I just wish this lonely feeling would go away.

 

Unfortunately my libido has started to come back to life for the first time in 3 months (since he left back home) but unfortunately the only man I want in that way is him. The thought of never feeling the physical attraction for someone else as I did for him scares me. I don't want him to be in the back of my mind when I get intimate with someone new. I don't want to compare and have the new guy fall short. This shows me that I may not be ready for anything like that yet, and I'm in no rush really, but I sometimes wonder if maybe getting back out there and under someone else might not help me past this roadblock. Maybe I've just put him on a pedestal of sorts in that department and having sex with someone else might dispel that. Or it could make everything worse. Bah! I'll have to think about this more.

[Logo]

I don't know why tonight of all nights, and for the first time in weeks, I miss her. I miss her badly.

 

But she played ping pong with my heart toward the end and I don't wish that on anyone. So why do miss her so bad? I miss us. I miss what we used to be early on.

 

What bothers me the most is trying to figure out what parts were real and what parts were fake. I think I know, but sometimes I have my doubts.

 

Why does that bother me so much?

 

We were so much in love. Could someone fake it that well? I find that hard to believe. She bragged about me. Isn't that love? She pampered me. Isn't that love?

[PLT]

I'll be blunt. I'm ****ing pissed off. Pissed off that almost 6 months on I'm STILL going over and over it all. Similar to Logo, I just can't get my head around how it all collapsed so quickly after it seemed so solid. Was there ever any real love? I'm fed up that I still can't get my thick head around the fact that we are over. I'm fed up of going over and over in my head what I would say to her if she got in touch. I'm fed up of her words ringing in my ears, I'm fed up of the memories, good and bad, flooding my mind when all I want to do is forget.

 

I'm tired of waking up and she is the first thought in my head. I'm tired of that voice in my head saying "Maybe today is the day". I'm tired of wondering whether she has thought about us at all. Whether she also wonders how it all went to ****. I'm tired of pretending I'm happy when I'm not. I'm tired of just going through the motions, day after day after day. I'm tired of thinking that this is it. This is how my life is from here on. Lonely, demotivated, and full of regret.

 

My motivation has gone off a cliff. Nothing seems to be worth anything any more. I just don't know what the point is any more. Each day is the same as the last and it feels like life is just a treadmill.

 

I used to have quite a big social circle. Somehow, its gone. I have no one outside family I would consider close any more. I have no idea how my life has come to this, and I have no idea how to fix it.

[DarrenB]

'Your life is your life

don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.

be on the watch.

there are ways out.

there is a light somewhere.

it may not be much light but

it beats the darkness.

be on the watch.

the gods will offer you chances.

know them.

take them.

you can’t beat death but

you can beat death in life, sometimes.

and the more often you learn to do it,

the more light there will be.

your life is your life.

know it while you have it.

you are marvelous

the gods wait to delight

in you.'

 

Charles Bukowski - The Laughing Heart

[Deadmeat]

In this game of love, you either win or you learn.

[divegrl]

NC Day 2

 

Life feels empty.

 

I just wanna get blazed.

[MrPlop]

I blocked my ex for the 15 millionth time today. I wrote about it in my other thread, but I lost my job and that has been a huge setback for me.

 

I have finally come to realize that no matter how many times he says he misses me, that does not mean he wants me back. It's all so annoying. I've never had a guy break up with me and then send text after text of how much he wishes I was with him. Per the NC post I need to stop asking WHY he's sending these texts, but rather HOW I will continue to move on and heal.

 

At this point I accept the relationship is over. It's done. And honestly his behavior over the past couple of weeks has shown me that he is pretty insecure if he needs to keep chasing after me for an ego boost. This is not the type of man I want to have a relationship with.

 

I feel lost right now with no source of income. I'm trusting that everything is unfolding as it should.

 

Take care my friends. Hugs

 

He texts you because you let him, he chases you because you let him, you need to understand this. Stop being his doormat, you don't deserve this, you deserve someone that loves you as much or more you love them, is not much to ask right? NC is a sad, depressing and lonely road, but it's still better than unrequited love.

 

As for myself, my ex stopped trying to contact after so long, I'm a bit proud and sad I was able avoid her. It's such an odd feeling I can't explain it, I was a bit hyped after I heard she was trying to reach out, but it wasn't happiness, it was something else, it's like deep down inside I understand that no matter what happens, no matter what she says now, we will never be together again, I feel she is no longer in this world, that the person trying to contact me now is a stranger, that it didn't happen, weird, just weird.

Edited February 6, 2017 by MrPlop

[divegrl]

He texts you because you let him, he chases you because you let him, you need to understand this. Stop being his doormat, you don't deserve this, you deserve someone that loves you as much or more you love them, is not much to ask right? NC is a sad, depressing and lonely road, but it's still better than unrequited love.

 

As for myself, my ex stopped trying to contact after so long, I'm a bit proud and sad I was able avoid her. It's such an odd feeling I can't explain it, I was a bit hyped after I heard she was trying to reach out, but it wasn't happiness, it was something else, it's like deep down inside I understand that no matter what happens, no matter what she says now, we will never be together again, I feel she is no longer in this world, that the person trying to contact me now is a stranger, that it didn't happen, weird, just weird.

 

Thank you for sharing.

 

Agreed.

 

I have been in denial.

 

Now that I accept the relationship is over; the floodgates of pain have opened.

 

Hugs my friend.

[Logo]

Funny how one can be emotionally and sexually intimate with someone but she can also become a stranger. I miss you, the nice, loving and affectionate you.

 

 

On a completely unrelated note, my favorite time of day is when I get into bed to sleep. I look forward to the peace of mind of putting my brain on idle until I have to wake up in the morning and face reality.

 

But I'm going to create my own reality. I am going to be the master of my fate and the captain of my soul

 

-William Henley-

[kztar]

Funny how one can be emotionally and sexually intimate with someone but she can also become a stranger. I miss you, the nice, loving and affectionate you.

 

 

On a completely unrelated note, my favorite time of day is when I get into bed to sleep. I look forward to the peace of mind of putting my brain on idle until I have to wake up in the morning and face reality.

 

But I'm going to create my own reality. I am going to be the master of my fate and the captain of my soul

 

-William Henley-

 

This is the same thing I look forward to. SLEEPING and being at on idle for a while.

 

But in the morning really hits.

[PLT]

Seriously, why has it all suddenly hit me again? Maybe its Valentines day coming up and the constant reminders when I go shopping. It's been nearly 6 months since I saw her, 3 months since she spoke to me, and 6 weeks since I sent a Happy New Year email, which I expected no reply from, and haven't tried to contact her since. I deleted myself from facebook on New Years Day and don't use any other social media.

 

The last few days my mind has been flooded with so many memories. Good ones, bad ones. Things she said, again both good and bad ring around my head. I heard the song "The Chain" by Fleetwood Mac the other day randomly on the radio and it keeps going round my head too. It feels so relevant, because I CAN still hear her saying we would never break the chain. I've become quite weepy again too, and I'm a little concerned that I might possibly begin that downwards spiral. I really don't want to go back there. It is not a nice place to be.

 

Just out of sheer determination to not have completely unproductive days I have forced myself to do stuff, even if it is only my study and some housework. At least that way I don't have the added burden of beating the crap out of myself for doing sweet fa all day but ruminate. But nothing is bringing me joy right now. Nothing. I see no future with happiness in it, just more of the same struggle trying to let go and being unable to.

 

My biggest mistake was putting so much faith in her. I should know better at my age. When I split with my ex wife in 2009, I swore I would never again give a woman so much emotional power over me. I put walls up. Slowly but surely over a period of a few years those walls came down with my new ex, only for it to all go tits up once I allowed myself to be completely vulnerable to her. I didn't even realise how much power she had until we were already in Crazyville and it was too late.

 

I have lost all faith in relationships, and yet I still yearn for the one I had with her before our communication and conflict resolution seemed to fly out the window. I really did believe we would grow old together.

 

Maybe in a year I will feel differently, but I hold little hope. I can still remember when I last saw her like it was yesterday. We were intimate too which kinda messes with my head. I have told myself that if I still feel the same way in a years time about her, I will reach out. I'm hoping that come next February, she will be the last person on my mind. We will see.

[divegrl]

This morning I was filled with so much anger. It was overwhelming. The last couple of days I have had no time for me. I have not been working out and my diet consisted of cinnamon toast and tea.

 

First thing this morning I rolled out my yoga mat. For the fist 30 minutes of practice I thought I was going to faint. Nausea filled my body and I just want to quit. I pushed thru and this ended up being the most amazing practice. I didn't worry about how the pose looked, but how deeply I could breathe in the pose.

 

My intention today is light up my life, one moment at a time. I really worked on hip opening to release all the negative energy. Folded over pigeon and shoelace felt amazing. The fascia pulling slowly apart, my hips releasing. My apex poses today were roadkill and reincarnation. I thought it was appropriate. After my practice ended I felt amazing! The anger had been released.

 

I am doing my best to eat healthy. Lean meats, healthy fats, veggies and fruits. I have eaten well and I feel so much better.

 

I am looking for jobs but nothing I really want. I have always had big dreams about what I want to do but I have always been too scared. Right now I want to release my fear. I really have nothing to lose. Just go for it. Now it the time.

 

I wish you well my friends.

[Crystal1111]

Day 2 hardcore NC.

I'm paralyzed by fear. I'm in such disbelief. This is awful. No other way to say it.

[divegrl]

NC Day 4

 

I have an urge to text him.... i won't. I'm not starting this over! I also miss him physically. I keep remembering how awesome the sex was. But of course it was awesome.... I was there!

 

I finally see how this break up has affected my self esteem. This past month I have been letting everyone use me. My ex, my family, some friends. I was so hurt... that i was seeking the little bit of validation i could find from anyone and everyone. No more! My confidence is coming back.... and i have set boundaries. It was funny, my friend said i looked great today!

 

I'm finally back to finding joy in life. Last night I made fish with imported spanish olive oil and thai basil. It was so delicious! I have also enjoyed reading the book Girl on a Train. It's fun.

 

My 3 components to a healthy mind, body and soul. Meditation/praying, yoga and healthy eating. My yoga practice today was so juicy and yummy. Lounge lunge is absolutely the best pose for stretching apart the ribs and separating the spine.

 

The whole no income thing is hard. I am meeting with a job counselor today. Trying to branch out and increase my connections. I know I'm am very skilled and I am navigating opportunities.

 

One day at a time. One breath at a time.

 

I sincerely hope everyone is finding joy in their lives again. Be well my friends.

[Deadmeat]

I've been doing pretty well not checking ex's social media. It had helped boost my recovery but lately I've been jonesing to check and I can't explain why.

 

I know logically it will do more harm than good but for whatever reason I just can't get over it. I'm afraid I'll have a weak moment, check it and see something I won't like and bring my recovery back. Why the **** do I get like this?

 

I keep telling myself that I'll wait another day hoping that the feeling goes away. But I'm just afraid...

[jenny987]

Day 3 of NC is in the books. Mornings are the worst. For some reason, each morning as I open my door, I hope he has left a letter on my doorstep. It's not there. Then I wonder if there will be something left on the windshield of my car. Nope. I get in my car and drive to work and repress the urge to check my phone every 15 minutes. The silence is stunning.

 

Going to bed is the best part of my day.

[StrangerThanFiction]

It appears I was mistaken about him not reaching out again. He called me really early in the morning a couple days ago (he's a few hours ahead of me in his province). I, like the spineless jelly fish I am, answered. It was just a normal conversation about people we know, what we've been up to, etc, and he said he'd try to call once a week just to catch up and keep in touch. Whoa now, buddy, don't over exert yourself trying to remember to call someone you claimed you loved at one point lol. I'm not holding my breath, nor will I be sitting by my phone hoping for him to call. I can honestly say I don't want to know what's going on in his life. He did mention that it seems pretty likely that he'll be coming back over here in the spring though because a tentative job opportunity he had over there looks like a no-go. My stomach dropped a bit at that because I really thought that it was a near guarantee that he wouldn't be coming back. Ah well, there's still 3 months to go before work here starts up again and a lot can change in 3 months so we'll see what happens.

[HorseLuck]

I was feeling good and then oddly enough he started to reach out again. It's been about 2 months straight silence on my part. He seemed to try his luck through snapchat and (due to my settings) realized he can text me even though I don't have him as a friend.

 

He sent me some bullsh*t that didn't make sense after mentioning that he would really like to talk to me. It included a photo of a sunset on the beach (as if i ever cared for beaches), and a video of him being an idiot trying to play the piano. I didn't respond to either. He asked again "please let's talk".

 

While I would like to think he's breaking, i also just think he is fishing. But god it hurt me. Specifically looking at him, he's looks so aged and I can't help but feel sympathy for him due to his job.

 

I hate him for the predicament he's put me in emotionally, where I still love him but also really dislike him and wish him illwill. There are moments where I'm tempted to break (and i never break no contact with a**holes) just to go in on him expressing the amount of pain he's put me through. But i also really refuse to give him that validation. *sigh* If there was a way to make him feel worse I'd love to know.

[PLT]

I'm so very angry, which makes me uncomfortable. The way she dehumanized me, humiliated me, brought 3rd parties into the dynamic to validate her disgusting treatment of me.

 

Who the hell tries to get someone arrested for sending a goddamn email!!! Not a malicious email either. Just "Happy New Year, my new years resolution is to let go. Take Care, Goodbye." I mean she has history of getting other people to do her dirty work, but police?!?!?! She states one of her exes tried to strangle her. Did she call police on him???? NO. But sending an email, crime of the ****ing century.

 

Did she call police out of fear or wanting protection from me? Of course not. I have never been, and will never be any threat to her safety, and she knows it. I'm not a violent person, its not in my nature, and she knows it. No she called police out of anger and spite. Anger at what? I still don't know really. I don't see how she verbally and emotional abused me, played me like a fiddle for well over a year, and in truth probably much longer than that, and then dumps me for no reason at all, and SHE is the one that's angry?

 

I'm angry at myself for still wanting her back too! What the **** is wrong with me. Where is my self esteem? I HAVE to forget about "when times were good". Those days are ****ing OVER. Long gone. It wasn't even real. It was an illusion. I wish I saw then what I see now.

 

When we first met and she **** talked every single one of her exes (apart from one who was so wonderful in her eyes, even though he straight up told her he wanted her for sex and nothing more). I should have listened to my gut. When it became clear that she was unable to communicate like an adult in an relationship, I should have listened. When, as a 40 year old woman, she got her mother to communicate via email with an ex over a property dispute, I should have listened. When she fell out with decade old friends and just cut them off with no explanation to them or trying to resolve (or even mention) issues, I should have listened. When an old ex friend messaged her telling her she had cancer and she just shrugged, I should have listened. When she went on and on about marriage within weeks of getting together, I should have listened. When she started insulting my children, I should have listened. When she showed me over and over and over again that she cares about no one but herself, I should have listened. When I started getting the blame for things OTHER PEOPLE did or didn't do, I should have listened. When she would regularly say "I'm going out with my other man" sarcastically, or would say "You compromise so I don't have to" and then pass it off as a "joke", when she actually meant every word, I should have listened.

 

And yet, I have so many good memories of our time together, and I miss them. It's almost like she was 2 people, and would switch between them at will, with no warning. One of these people was sweet, kind, caring and behaved like an adult. The other was a spiteful child throwing temper tantrums, and she could go from one to the other and back again in the blink of an eye, over anything, or indeed over nothing. If there was nothing to throw a **** fit about, hey just make something up! Whatever it took to "keep me on my toes".

 

And yet I'm the one who is suffering now. She isn't feeling the pain of losing me. The one person in her life who showed her again and again that he truly loved her, and tried EVERYTHING over a long period of time to show her that if we both wanted it and tried, we could make it work. She talked the talk, but not once did she walk the walk. 4 months into our relationship I remember her saying "We need to work on communicating better don't we?". Guess what, 4 years later and it still hadn't happened. Well, it did from my side. I did a bunch of reading and made an effort to communicate differently, but in all honestly, it made not a damn bit of difference because she just carried on as she was. The thing at the core of it all was she always, always assumed the worst. I kept telling her that maybe if she assumed the best rather than the worst of me, that all the unnecessary arguments would have stopped overnight. It's draining to always be on the back foot because you are being accused of all manner of behaviours based not on any fact at all, but on assumption.

 

She is the most controlling person I have ever met. I hope she ends up with someone as poisonous as her and they make each others lives a living hell.

 

Damn that was long.

[layla21]

Well, same here today, I also in the phase of anger.

 

Seriously, I realize he took me for granted way too long and I even hold up and fought for our relationship - did all I could to rekindle and be emotionally close again but who didn't appreciate the efforts? Yes, him. This guy who calls it quits or just stopped any of my efforts because he is too busy and even proclaims "Why do I need to use any baits? Why should I pamper you?".

 

WTF is wrong with him? Is it too much to ask for one message during his precious 24 hours? Even one message saying "Sorry, hun, I am busy today but come back to you" or AYNTHING? Or is it too much to ask to let me take part of his life? Is it too much to ask?

 

I felt so lonely, sad, disappointed and cried myself to sleep in the months before the BU thinking about leaving him but I did not. Why? I admit, maybe I was weak and a coward and would miss it having him around but deep down I knew we could manage. Could overcome everything but I was wrong.

 

He called it quits because he "gave chances and I kinda got my 3 strikes" and he "doesnt want to argue anymore". Yea, I sincerely hope you meet someone who is all this perfect and with whom you never ever have to fight which cause you so many headaches.

 

The BU may be even for the better. I wasn't happy with him anymore but STILL. Which kind of human being is telling another one 1 WEEK after the BU to move on because there might ALREADY be someone else? Who does that? To help me move on? Well, sorry to disappoint, it devastated me even more.

 

How can he possibly keep up with any relationship in this manner? Cannot even communicate with his phone and now on to the next LDR? He left his ex because they were arguing about the same thing (him not messaging and ignoring) and now the same has happened to us. Someone did not learn out of his mistakes. Now on to the next - well, ****ing good luck! Girl, I hope he wont replace you as fast as he did it with me. While I grieve, learn and grow, he so will be stuck in life.

 

Whatever he did to me during and especially after the BU was so humiliating, disrepectful and undeserving, I will get back to him somehow in some damn way even if its just a small thing or just let karma do its thing. I don't even want to waste one of my thoughts on him ever again. He is just not capable of a deep and long-term relationship. Seriously lost all my respect and trust in him - "lets say friends", sure, in our next lives maybe.

 

Even though I hate how I appear, I feel much better. Just need to vent a bit here.

Edited February 9, 2017 by layla21

[PLT]

Layla, I got the 3 strikes BS too. I forgot about that.

 

Well if these people expect to find someone who won't make 3 mistakes for the rest of their lives. Good luck with that. I'm not talking about cheating or physical abuse. In my opinion those are deal breakers the first time they happen. I mean trivial things that should be worked on as a TEAM. None of us are flawless.

 

It's just a BS way to justify their crap. If they don't want to work with you on the relationship and just point score, they never really gave a **** about you in the first place. It's hard to come to terms with that, but that's the truth.

[layla21]

Layla, I got the 3 strikes BS too. I forgot about that.

 

Well if these people expect to find someone who won't make 3 mistakes for the rest of their lives. Good luck with that. I'm not talking about cheating or physical abuse. In my opinion those are deal breakers the first time they happen. I mean trivial things that should be worked on as a TEAM. None of us are flawless.

 

It's just a BS way to justify their crap. If they don't want to work with you on the relationship and just point score, they never really gave a **** about you in the first place. It's hard to come to terms with that, but that's the truth.

 

Hi PLT,

 

I'm sorry to hear you got this nonsense as well. And I totally agree with you - seriously, I couldn't believe my ears when I heard that. I mean it involved something about my character (impulsiveness but only when I care I get mad) which he cannot live with but he NEVER mentioned it before. I mean who is perfect? You may be right - you actually gave me a new perspective that maybe he never really gave a crap about me or the relationship and instead of working it out or at least telling me so I am aware of it, NO, he chose the easiest way out. Thanks for this enlightment, PLT.

 

Sure, it is his way of dealing with problems, people or whatever but who is giving "strikes" as a reason? I was only focused on that because it's so ridiculous in itself when you are in a relationship, just tell me the truth and I am gone but coming with this shows a lot of weakness.

 

Anyway, they both freed us from their weird perspective of life. There will be someone who takes us as we are without counting arguments or fights and being a team instead. That's what rational people do - there is no relationship without arguments or fights. They rather make them healthy.

 

Can I tell you one more thing why I am so angry? In the post BU phase after I weakly tried to reason with him and kind of begged him back, I was really trying to not flip out and be rational. So while breaking NC, I kept my composure but he read between lines and gave me something like this: "we can talk between friends again but only in a JOYFUL manner". Told me this twice because he didnt like what I wrote. Sure, maybe he's hurt as well (doubt that with his possible rebound) but can you explain this? Now he - the dumper - is giving ME orders how to behave! A day after this actually made me laugh and now somehow mad again - I dont even know I can be friends with him but even if, ohhhhh someone only wants to talk in a joyful manner. I mean not even my friends are always like that, its normal. So ridiculous.

Edited February 9, 2017 by layla21

[divegrl]

It appears I was mistaken about him not reaching out again. He called me really early in the morning a couple days ago (he's a few hours ahead of me in his province). I, like the spineless jelly fish I am, answered. It was just a normal conversation about people we know, what we've been up to, etc, and he said he'd try to call once a week just to catch up and keep in touch. Whoa now, buddy, don't over exert yourself trying to remember to call someone you claimed you loved at one point lol. I'm not holding my breath, nor will I be sitting by my phone hoping for him to call. I can honestly say I don't want to know what's going on in his life. He did mention that it seems pretty likely that he'll be coming back over here in the spring though because a tentative job opportunity he had over there looks like a no-go. My stomach dropped a bit at that because I really thought that it was a near guarantee that he wouldn't be coming back. Ah well, there's still 3 months to go before work here starts up again and a lot can change in 3 months so we'll see what happens.

 

Awwww you are not spineless. I'm not sure how you are able to contact your ex. I had a total breakdown after responding to a text that lead to two weeks of madness! Good for you that you are not waiting around for him to call back! We deserve so much better than this!

 

I honestly think once we can heal from these guys who string us along and are indifferent to us.... that we can open ourselves up to meeting the right guy! Take care my friend. I hope you have a great day!

 

Hugs