StrangerThanFiction Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 Today was so much better than yesterday. Even though I was physically in a lot of pain, my emotional state was pretty level. Barely thought about the ex today. So glad I didn't give in and text him last night.
Gloria25 Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 I don't know, I'm gearing up to break up my non-RL as the "imaginary girlfriend" and while it is long overdue, it just has me upset. There's no such thing as a good break up, even for "non-relationships". You know you have to do it, but it still sucks. Eh, but so far he's beaten me to the punch by already saying (again) that he does not see anything happening between us. Maybe this is my cue to not even bother in broaching the subject with him and just moving on...
pillowpuffs Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 Mornings are the toughest. They hurt the most and I always wake wishing I could go to sleep for another 5 years. 1
TunaCat Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 My heart misses him tonight. Logically I know we aren't a good match for one main reason: I'm not attracted to him at all. But he had a good heart, he loved me and I always felt like the most beautiful woman in the world. But he didn't have a backbone, he was a doormat (much like his own father) and he always agreed with me. It was like he never had his own opinion. Those were things that bothered me, but they were never a reason to dump him. I had never felt more loved and I thought that was important. Just some random midnight musings.
OneForTheRoad Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 She packed the rest of her stuff at my house and will pick them up tomorrow. It's a month and one week after BU. We just texted a bit about logistics, but I feel the adverse effects on my recovery. This morning was the worst in a week, though mornings are usually pretty bad. Got a new haircut, which made me feel like a million bucks. Next up I'm gonna try and convince my brother to help me put new wheels on my car and go for a car wash. For tonight I'm gonna start reading "The Power of Now"
Mathematics Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 She packed the rest of her stuff at my house and will pick them up tomorrow. It's a month and one week after BU. We just texted a bit about logistics, but I feel the adverse effects on my recovery. This morning was the worst in a week, though mornings are usually pretty bad. Got a new haircut, which made me feel like a million bucks. Next up I'm gonna try and convince my brother to help me put new wheels on my car and go for a car wash. For tonight I'm gonna start reading "The Power of Now" A fine book. It has helped me in the past. Still refer to it on occasion.
veryconfusedone Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 Just laying in bed, watching episodes of Gilmore Girls on Netflix.
finalendeavor Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 Lots of contemplation today. Still analyzing the hell out of what happened, but the memories are fading. I'm analyzing with a lot less emotion now, save for those occasional feelings of longing, having been deceived, and easily thrown away; the hot and then suddenly cold behavior really hurt my self esteem, even if it wasn't a reflection of me. I'm beginning to believe that the breakup really didn't have anything to do with me at all; this is what my intuition is telling me, at least. He probably doesn't often think about me or care, because he's too busy thinking/ caring about himself, and the way he treated me is most likely the way he will continue to treat girls until he matures. I think he's got a strong case of scared, confused, young twenty-something guy. I don't know if he'll come back or not, whether it be for closure of reconciliation, but I know I'll be okay either way; it's out of my control. The absence of contact is also not a reflection of my worth, even if it feels extremely personal. 2
Sunshine09 Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 Doing better today Hung out with someone I've always found attractive yesterday and actually had a really great time. Didn't think about my ex once things are definitely looking up 2
Phoenixashes Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 Feeling a bit hollow today. Not so much sad. Just missing that space where he was...every time I feel just fine, the hollow of missing him hits me. Will put all of my energy into creating a better me...mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. 1
dyna85 Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 I am living proof that sometimes it takes a really long time to heal. Look at my join date people. Still healing. Doing a lot of reflection lately. Just rolling with it the best I can. Not judging myself for still being here on LS. I will be okay... as will we all. Not going to add a smiley though because that would be too much. I'm just feeling okay. Still feeling it, but still living. Guess that's progress.
Arda199 Posted August 8, 2015 Posted August 8, 2015 The past 3 days were GREAT i had a lot of fun with family and friends, didn't think of my ex much (except in the morning) even when i do i doesn't hurt as much as before. Hopefully i reach the point where i don't think of her at all. 1
iheartgoodmusic Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Crying because I want myself back, I want to feel normal again. I feel robbed but I was stupid enough to stay.
ASV Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Coping like hell again. I just can't live with the feeling of meeting a stranger when I meet my ex.
guest569 Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Thinking I met someone cool and being rejected yet again. It's always. Always me that gets rejected. I love my ex and have never loved since. I've met guys better than he was ans who I like more but I don't love them and pf course none of them even want to date me, or maybe will for a couple of months and ditch me. I don't have anyone
Alza Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Up and down today. Picked the kids up and took them for some fun which meant seeing her. Stayed cool on the outside, in pieces on the inside. When I dropped the kids back off she wanted to talk about my son (who has taken it really badly), she then shifted the conversation on to how I'm coping and how she didn't want this or to hurt me. I told her I didn't want to talk about that and left. Managed not to cry! Off to the gym and tanning salon this afternoon.
OneForTheRoad Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Feeling low on power, she's picking up the rest of her stuff today. I'm probably not at home when that happens, but we'll see. Not a good idea to see her if I'm already stressed.
Xiomn Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Feeling low on power, she's picking up the rest of her stuff today. I'm probably not at home when that happens, but we'll see. Not a good idea to see her if I'm already stressed. Don't go home then, or ask her when she's planning on coming down so you can intentionally avoid her.
Phoenixashes Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Feeling good today. Neutral feelings. No sadness. Starting to get hit with the stage that comes after the focus on "only the good" fades. Wow... 1
Xiomn Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 My stresses and worries are focused on something different at the moment so I think and worry more about them than I do her.
Yummm Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Just had my first date since my breakup (3 months) and I'm feeling good. This new girl really finds me attractive and it's great to finally feel appreciated and wanted again. Even though I don't have the 'sparks' with this girl like I did with my ex, she is lovely and I will continue dating her to see if anything can form more maturely than my last relationship (instantly fell in love) Feeling very refreshed and positive! Sending positive energy to everybody xox 7
Xiomn Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 (edited) New song out by Calvin Harris called 'How deep is your love?' To my ex: Clearly it wasn't very deep on your part. Words are so easy to say...You've gotta show me love. Edited August 9, 2015 by Xiomn 1
finalendeavor Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Really ****ing rough weekend. This is the weekend I was going to move in with him, my best friend. I was going to move states and start a new life with him. This doesn't hurt AS badly as I thought it would, considering we haven't spoken since the BU 6 weeks ago, but I'm still really hurting. The memories are killing me. The fact that it doesn't seem like he gives any sort of a **** at all (judging from the lack of contact...) REALLY hurts. I don't understand how you could go from wanting to live with someone, to dumping them and not saying anything to them for well over a month. I'm hurting so badly.
Yummm Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 New song out by Calvin Harris called 'How deep is your love?' To my ex: Clearly it wasn't very deep on your part. Words are so easy to say...You've gotta show me love. 2 great songs bro, keep listening to them, feel them, ooze positivity out of them. Heartbreaks & promises, we've had more than our share 1
Jellybean24 Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 (edited) Feel terrible today. I was doing well at No Contact and on Day 10 (3rd time trying) but this time he contacted me. It's been the second time since our break up he's initiated contact. I was doing so well, feeling empowered at Day 10 and then he texted me. It was a meaningless conversation really, all about how was I, was I up to much, did I have any news, asking how my family were, then told me about how he injured himself one night. Our conversation went really good, i kept it cool. He gave me the impression he was concerned about me. But, then he ended the conversation because he knew i had to go back to work. He said good talking to you, talk to you again. It's completely set me back, i guess its mixed signals. I know with the NC rule I shouldn't have wrote back but I don't want to look even weaker by not being able to talk to him. I already have him blocked on Social Media, plus we've a lot of mutual friends so in a way we need to keep the lines of communication some way open. Does anyone have any advice for his motives?! I guess he was just concerned about me... he hasn't a clue what i've been up to the last two months. Edited August 9, 2015 by Jellybean24
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