Author brokengirl85 Posted July 9, 2015 Author Posted July 9, 2015 Well, it got to a point where I know I will never get over him, but I got to accept it as a fact. 14 weeks no contact, I unblocked him three weeks ago, he contacted me, I ignored, he disappeared and that was all. I have days when I do think he was worthless (the most) and then days when I miss the old times and think about all the excitement and that I'd never feel that way again. I've given up on dating sites. I realized I have no desire at all to date someone new, no urges to kiss or be intimate with anyone, and no energy to get to know someone else. I just got tired of trying. I also realized I don't need someone else to feel good about myself. It's not that I'm happy with my life as it is right now, but I don't want to add more trouble to it. I feel sad about the whole situation. I now realized he probably never loved me or cared about me and I was living a dream. It's sad. I miss him but, whatever, after all he's just another guy. Another guy I put on a pedestal but at the end, he's just not worth it. I haven't blocked him again. What for? He just vanished after I ignored him. Clear as water, I've been wasting energies and time in someone that never cared. I'm grateful he never insisted. truth is liberating. I wonder when I'll accept this situation and move on. 1
frigginlost Posted July 9, 2015 Posted July 9, 2015 Well, it got to a point where I know I will never get over him, but I got to accept it as a fact. 14 weeks no contact, I unblocked him three weeks ago, he contacted me, I ignored, he disappeared and that was all. I have days when I do think he was worthless (the most) and then days when I miss the old times and think about all the excitement and that I'd never feel that way again. I've given up on dating sites. I realized I have no desire at all to date someone new, no urges to kiss or be intimate with anyone, and no energy to get to know someone else. I just got tired of trying. I also realized I don't need someone else to feel good about myself. It's not that I'm happy with my life as it is right now, but I don't want to add more trouble to it. I feel sad about the whole situation. I now realized he probably never loved me or cared about me and I was living a dream. It's sad. I miss him but, whatever, after all he's just another guy. Another guy I put on a pedestal but at the end, he's just not worth it. I haven't blocked him again. What for? He just vanished after I ignored him. Clear as water, I've been wasting energies and time in someone that never cared. I'm grateful he never insisted. truth is liberating. I wonder when I'll accept this situation and move on. You want to know something? That post is the absolute perfect example of *healing*! You are doing fantastic! You are totally in tune with yourself and being completely honest with yourself. Well done! When my marriage ended after nearly 20 years, I felt the exact same way, to the letter. The councilor I was seeing at the time told me it was absolutely great that I was at that point, and it was all downhill from there. The hard work is nearly over. A little more time and you will be your complete old self regarding love. She was absolutely right. Seven months later I found someone new. Didn't work out, but it showed me the process of healing works.
Author brokengirl85 Posted July 17, 2015 Author Posted July 17, 2015 It's been 4 months no contact and one month since he contacted me and I ignored. I've been really depressed lately, just wanted to sleep. I'm seeing a counselor but it's not quite working. I still miss him him and think why he didn't love me. Some days I forget about him, then I remember some things, some plans we had, some moments we shared, and I get really sad. I've tried to date other guys but haven't met anyone yet. It's like I have no energy to get to know someone new. It's like I'm exhausted already. I miss the old times. I hope I'll get better. I'm really discouraged.
mightycpa Posted July 17, 2015 Posted July 17, 2015 My questions are: why he didn't insist? Why he just deleted his profile? Why is he not asking me why I don't reply? Why he gave up that easily? Why? Reason for breakup: he said he wasn't in love with me and he wanted to continue dating other women at same time I think you answered your own question.
rmuscle Posted July 17, 2015 Posted July 17, 2015 I was on tinder only to keep my mind busy off my ex of 5 years Everybody wants to hook up. It's bull****. If u only want conversation they're like **** you. I want sex. It's like I'm lost in this freaking twilight zone of being alone. It sucks besides losing my job, falling behind on my rent. Sigh!
Author brokengirl85 Posted July 17, 2015 Author Posted July 17, 2015 Mightycpa thank you. Yes, he didn't insist because he wasn't in love with me. True but it still hurts. Rmuscle: I've tried to engage in conversation to eventually meet with other guys, but apparently I'm playing way out of my league because the ones I want don't want to talk to me. Sooo...I'm feeling really sad. I need to find guys in real life and stop insisting with online dating because this is never going to work. At least in real life I can get excited by someone bc of their personality and not their looks. So funny, the ex always made me feel like I was a supermodel and look at me now, I only attract losers and undesirables that no one else wants. Sad
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