blinkers Posted June 24, 2014 Posted June 24, 2014 I am 25, I have been married before, when I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I was with the father for nearly 6 years. And although I though I loved him, now I know different. I split up with him 5 years ago and never even contemplated a relationship with anyone else. No one took my interest. I had walls and I didn't depend or rely on anyone for anything and I was strong. Just under a year ago I met someone. He was someone who was at my work place to do some repairs. We got talking to each other and we both felt this connection that I can't even try to explain to you. We were like the exact same person, same interests same opinions, even down to the weirdest traits that we share. We spent alot of time together whilst he was over my way, and then he had to go back home. Which was 300 miles away. I said that id would visit but i realised that I had fallen in love with him and thought it would be better not to visit him seeing as I had found out he had a girlfriend and a baby. I was rushed into hospital in the next couple of days and I was informed that I had cancer. The guy kept trying to talk to me so I spoke to him and told him what had happened. He told me he loved me. He was great. He visited me on numerous occasions and he helped me through the hardest part of my life. Even after I had surgery and I couldnt remember him, he tried every day to help me get my memories back. He helped me when I lost our baby and every single day that we were involved. He said I was his one true love and his soul mate and hed never felt this strongly for anyone before. That infact he didnt think hed loved anyone before. That the connection that we shared was so strong. Anyway a week ago I told him if he wanted to be with me then I wanted him to be with me, and if he didnt want to then I was walking away. He had a panic attack down the phone and told me that he couldnt cope if i walked out of his life so he would break it off with his girlfriend. Fast forward a couple of hours and before he had chance to tell her she found out. She told him if he left her for me he would never see his daughter again. His daughter is his whole world, so I understand that he would stay. But he has completely cut me out of his life because his girlfriend said he cannot talk to me again. He's been texting my best friend to see how i am and how i am coping and told him that I am the best thing that ever happened to him, that he still wants to see me for my birthday and that he loves me more then he thought was possible. I am stuggling because although I know its the best reason in the world to cut me out, I cant deal with it. I love him so much and I cannot imagine my life without him. How can I move on when I know that he loves me still and that he wants the future we talked about that he just cant be with me?
somecamel Posted June 24, 2014 Posted June 24, 2014 What a tale of woe, I really do feel for you. This new guy has made his decision and you need to abide by this, what will be will be in the future but for now work on yourself. I doubt it will last with his girlfriend, he's cheated on her with you and she's not going to be able to forget that in a hurry. He may come back, but if he's willing to cheat with you on his current girlfriend, what kind of security do you have for the future? There are plenty of nice men out there believe it or not, don't shut yourself away like you did after your first marriage, get out there and experience life, the right person is out there someone for you.
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