BlueHuma Posted June 23, 2014 Posted June 23, 2014 i came to this forum to seek some answers that i knew already, but just to be sure of myself i had just broken up with my girfriend of 2.6 years, we had nice time together, we have known eachother for about 5 years and we were that "trusting friends" who shared secrets and broblems at early ages before our relationship, lately we both started acting bad towards ourself, no atention and whatsoever, sure i started to bitch around that what is wrong with her, before the brakup i tryied to make things right, one day i came to her apartment, kissed her and hugged her, after that i told her (had that emotional tekst) that i have lately been not so good to her and i would really like to be a better person to her (our sex life was off like 2-3 months then) after the talk, i told her that we should watch a movie together, so we did, i even let her decide what movie, cause im not into drama stuff, afer that we talked a little and made an agreement that when she came back home i had dinner ready and house clean, did so... but what i get back from it is she coming home eating the food what i made and not a single thankyou, sure our relationship was on the edge and maybe she just did not want to thank me with reason. so, this said... we had a party where her brother graduated, i drank alot and did some idiotic stuff that i do not even remember, after that we both agreed to break up, the breakup happened 3 days ago and im at her parents place far away from the city, cant go home aswell because they are going to the city tomorrow. we are separated and do not talk with eachother, but today i noticed that she attemts to make me jealous, shes going out with his "guy" best friend well, i did not actually give a grap about that because after the breakup i have my own rules that i follow first of all, no contact. Im not that kind of a person who just try's to get her back, im actually happy that we broke up, but im sure within a week i will feel low so im trying to avoid it we also watched world cup together, she was sitting by my side, i had her kittycat on my lap, i felt that kino she made, patting her cat but slightly touch me. im a little worried if i do not hae any emotions anymore or am i just weird that i heal fast, maybe i take the fact that no relationship lasts forever and eventually ours had to end aswell she told me that i can sleep at her bed if i wanted to, but i denied and asked me for a date that i accepted first but then denied saying that it would be best for us . the thing about the dates were that she told me that she wanted to go on a date with me and repair our relationship, but instead she went with her sister making me sit home, we talked that we should go instead of her going with her sister, i had no money that time, but she had and i told her that we can split it or i can even pay all of it later on, bot nope she went with her sister before her brothers graduating i asked her to wear a dress that i bought her (she has wore it only 2 times total), she agreed and i was happy that she agreed, but when it came to actual graduating, she still wore something else, this saddened me alot and is a big reason aswell why i did such idiotic stuff at the party i do not know how things will end up with us 2, i have a plan that i can eventually get her back but this plan is 2 sided, its about letting go and man up and hopefully notice me like she used to or just man up and let go and im a free man, both sided it would end up good im going to not initiate contact for 4 weeks and see where that gets me hopefully it works out and i can be happy again, because i havent been happy for past 6 months now
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