LarryW125 Posted June 22, 2014 Posted June 22, 2014 I don't even know where to begin. This girl and I were so close with each other. We both really liked each other and it was great. We kept it a secret because we got afraid of her parent's disapproval and all the drama that would arise if people found out about us. We would always meet in secret when no one else was around. I offered to meet, but one day she didn't feel like it. I tried and tried to get closer with her but she kept pulling away from me. One day, I asked her what was wrong and she said that her feelings weakened. Maybe they weakened because she was protecting herself? I don't know. I've been trying to connect with her but i've been getting hurt so much. I really do love her and it's so hard for me to move on from her because she was my first everything although we never had sex. It's so frustrating because we were together but now we're not and I want to have that back with her so bad. I became really depressed and clingy. I would text her a lot and send her these long love felt messages and didn't get strong messages of love back. I've contemplated suicide because i've been so sad. I've had such a rough life and she was one of the things that helped me felt genuine happiness. I recently got two jobs and i'm preparing for my first year of college. I'm trying to distract myself and fight my depression, but it's so hard. We recently were both invited to a party and I sat in the corner while she and everyone else danced and had fun. The last time we talked, I told her how I was willing to feel heartbroken for her happiness. And it's true. I want her to be so happy, but I feel so terrible. Its' hard to keep going. I told her I knew she was never going to chase me and she won't. She told me herself she's not a chaser. I'm trying to heal. I'm on day 3 of NC. I'm trying to move on, but I can't get her out of my head. I have terrible anxiety. I want her to want me as much as she did and I know me showing my depression might've pushed her away. But i'm trying to heal by singing and working out and it's still so hard. I'm going to go back into therapy. Is there any way she might want me back if I become stronger and give her space with no contact? I can't live like this anymore. I don't know where else to turn.
Yamaha Posted June 23, 2014 Posted June 23, 2014 Is there any way she might want me back if I become stronger and give her space with no contact? No! She is done. You have to accept it. I'm going to go back into therapy Good. You need to talk out your issues. You need to learn acceptance. She decided you are not the one for her and you should not want someone who doesn't love you the same way. Get the help you need to feel better about yourself. Depression is tough but it can be overcome and life won't seem so gloomy!
benzo72 Posted June 23, 2014 Posted June 23, 2014 Dudeim sorry for what your going through! We have all been there at one time or another. But seriously killing yourself ISNT the answer!!! In the end you will still loose her. You are just in pain right now, and need to focus on yourself only! Forget her, women can be tricky like that. But i can assure you this, you will heal in time, your pain will become less with time sir. I know because im currently on the same road as you, just a few miles further is all. Doing NC will help, but its going to take a few weeks. Dont give in and break NC, it only hurts you if you do! Your doing great on day 3!! Remember, NO CONTACT what so ever! No text, no calls, no emails, no smoke signals, NOTHING! You just disappear! Oh and if your friends with her on any social media sites deactivate them for your own peace of mind ok?
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