acidrein_08 Posted June 1, 2014 Posted June 1, 2014 I don't want to write our entire story so ill just hit on the main points. Me and me girlfriend just split up, she broke it off after 2 and a half years. Sadly this wasn't the first time she had broke up with me but this is why I know this time is different. We have officially been living together since last August, but she stayed with me at my last apartment a lot and basically you could say lived with me there. So just today (which is why I'm so crushed) she packed up all her things and moved out. She even took the dog she got us when we first moved in. Before when we had arguments and she talked about leaving or actually left she might pack a small bag of things at the most, and it never lasted, we would always be back together after a day or 2. The last couple times though I was pretty dumb and begged her in a way to stay and that things would get better. It worked but every time I feel like she started caring less and less. You see I was desperate, I work 2 jobs and any free time I get I am with her because we lived together. I don't have any friends that live close to me to go hang out with either to get my mind off of things. So basically my world revolved around her. So right now I'm literally in this apartment with so many things missing including her and the dog who I was also attached to, and I feel so completely alone. So we had a fight last night and she told me she was leaving me, but told me she had already been planning on it she just didn't know when she would (and I was always scared of this). During the argument she kept telling me she hated me, that she couldn't stand me, that she just didn't care about me anymore and regretted being with me. Today when she was packing up her things to leave I asked if we could talk since she was no longer so frustrated. She pretty much said a lot of the same stuff she told me she didn't want to ever come back, that she didn't want to talk or ever be friends, that she was just done. She showed no emotion it was like talking to a rock, I kept asking questions and even that annoyed her. I just can't figure out how she completely has lost all interest in me and after all this time shows no emotion to ending things. So here I am in the place we picked out together by myself thinking about every way it went wrong and wishing there was something I could do, please help!
d0nnivain Posted June 1, 2014 Posted June 1, 2014 It's gonna suck for a while. Today & maybe for the rest of the week you get to wallow. You should. You're grieving. Next weekend will be time for rearranging. Move the furniture. Pack away the momentos. It will help you heal.
JoeFallkon Posted June 1, 2014 Posted June 1, 2014 I know the feeling. my girl used to pack up her ish everytime we d argue. one time i kicked her out. and she came out our girl neighbors house 3 days later. i did miss her and we talked she ended up staying. but now shes an ex. Stay busy. whatever you do dont call her. just like you miss her, im sure she misses you too. and if she ever comes back, she ll think about it twice before packing up her stuff. just give it some time.
Author acidrein_08 Posted June 1, 2014 Author Posted June 1, 2014 Its so hard i finally was able to sleep last night and woke up twice cuz of bad dreams. I haven't ate since she left I don't even feel hungry. This is the first weekend ive woke up and she's not been here, I barely could get up and have only managed to smoke some cigs and lay back down on the couch(where I picture her always sitting or laying next to me) . I don't even have the dog to keep me company. I'm pretty sure she went out last night and assuming she had a great time and isn't even worried about it, I try not to think about it and I haven't contacted her but I just lay here wishing she would miss me and contact me.
let-it-go Posted June 1, 2014 Posted June 1, 2014 It's harsh about the dog, I couldn't imagine being without mine. Pack away anything you have that reminds you of her. And go start a new hobby. Join a new gym or join a running club. It will help you meet new people
JoeFallkon Posted June 1, 2014 Posted June 1, 2014 Yeah man. forgot to mention, fri and sat night are the worst. Theres a lot of shi* that goes through my mind those days, but every weekend, it kinda fades slowly.i hate waking up alone, knowing she might be w someone else kills me, but thats why im here.
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