For the OW and OM who miss their AP: how do you cope?

[ConfusedMarriedOW]

I miss my xMM.

 

Toward the end of our EA I pushed his buttons and did things he specifically asked me not to because I couldn't handle the roller coaster ride we were on, I knew if I pushed too hard he would jump ship. I was too chicken to end it on my own because I had fallen so madly in love with him it felt like chopping off a limb to remove him from my life. I believed he didn't love me that much and could do so more easily if I pushed him hard enough, and I was right. After a lot of pressure he finally broke down and ended it all.

 

Regardless He wanted to work on things with the wife and finds me too emotionally draining. And at the end I was, I was losing my mind. I have never cried so much in my life as I did during our short stint together.

 

Long story short I feel regret for not being able to stick it out, I also feel relieved that it ended.

 

I miss him daily, I cry for him daily. I just want to be friends but I know it would be impossible. He didn't respond to my last email anyway. I think he is using the no contact method. I don't blame him, but at the same time I am desperate for him.

 

Will I ever heal? What do you do to feel better? Have you healed? Have you had missing him/her affecting your ability to do daily things or be able to have sex or think of sexual activity without thinking of them?

 

I want to hear responses back from ONLY OW and OM who miss their affair partners, all other contributors are off topic. Please respect this.

 

I need support from others who also suffer while missing their AP.

 

I am not looking for lectures or relationship advice, thanks.

Edited May 25, 2014 by ConfusedMarriedOW

[DKT3]

If your looking for support on this topic the OM/OW section would be the place.

[ConfusedMarriedOW]

Thanks, I am not sure how to remove this thread

[William]

If your looking for support on this topic the OM/OW section would be the place.

If one reads the pinned thread at the top of this forum, very thoughtfully provided by a LoveShack moderator, one will see this:

 

"By its title, this area is for people in marriages or life partnerships, who are either participating in an affair or suspect their partner is. This sub forum is designed for personal discussion of one’s situation as he or she navigates through infidelity and the resulting impact on his or her life.

 

Threads posted here should come from a personal point of view with regard to the thread starter’s own situation as either a wandering spouse (WS) or betrayed spouse (BS). "

 

Apparently, the thread starter, by their username, identifies themselves as being married, so their posting is appropriate in this subforum of MLP. A married person in an affair with another married person has the choice of this forum or the OW/OM to locate their topics.

 

As a reminder, LoveShack is a unified discussion forum which has separate areas to locate topical content. There are no 'other forums' here, only one forum with different spaces for different topics.

 

Topical responses in accordance with our guidelines are welcomed. Thread starter, if you wish to re-locate this thread, you may request that via the 'alert us' link on your posting and moderation will respond. Thanks and please continue!