radf Posted May 4, 2014 Posted May 4, 2014 I was with my ex boyfriend for 4 and a half years, he was my first love. We split up 18 months ago. I loved him dearly with all my heart, and would have done absolutely anything for him. I truly worshipped the ground he walked on. To cut a long story short, we had ups and downs in our relationship but I always saw him as the one I saw myself settling down with. We split up because of constant arguing towards the end of the relationship due to the fact I had moved away to work and he was very jealous of my new friends, even though there was no reason for him to be jealous, my friendships were totally platonic. He ending things with me over text message, whilst I was away working. I was absolutely distraught and he refused to see me incase he 'changed his mind'. I knew we were going through a rough patch but I thought we would get through it. After a while I gave up attempting to see him as I was not getting anywhere. I decided no contact would be the best way forward. Even with no contact, I still found it extremely difficult to get him out of my mind and not get upset about it. We exchanged a couple of text messages over the year but I always ended up getting upset. I saw him at christmas and stupidly we ended up sleeping together, which really messed me up when he said he doesn't want to be with me after it. I decided to cut him out my life again and after 3 months no contact I saw him out again a few weeks ago and we ended up sleeping together again (I know I am such an idiot). I didn't get upset like I did last time but I do find myself thinking of him a lot. I miss him an awful lot, and I worry I am never going to find anyone who I will have that connection with, and who I will love as much as I did him. I have dated a couple of guys over the past year but they have all turned out to be complete idiots. I don't know what to do, it can't be normal to still be upset over an ex after 18 months? I feel like I have tried everything and nothing has worked. I think I am an incredibly sensitive person and I worry I will never get over him Thoughts please?
FredJones80 Posted May 4, 2014 Posted May 4, 2014 Thoughts please? Stop sleeping with him, you have deep feelings for him and are resetting yourself back to day 1 pain each time.
Natsume21 Posted May 4, 2014 Posted May 4, 2014 Why are you sleeping with him if he doesn't want to be with you? Do you like to hurt yourself with insanity? Get un-addicted. It'll save you in the long run. You'll realize soon you don't need that in your life. 1
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