My Story (Long read!!)

[lvroflife]

Some may know my story some may not. I first posted back at the start of February about my break up! Feel free to read.

 

It has been a journey! I realized A LOT about myself! As all DUMPEES can agree too. And you new dumpees will learn a lot about yourself as well! I joined the gym and gained 10lbs of muscle, I am switching careers to start my own business, I found my REAL friends, and I moved, amongst other things.

 

YES, YES, YES, you must focus on YOU!! IT is hard as HELL, but you must! I broke NC a few times and each time after I got my fix I was sad again! I got the bread crumbs (DIDN;T FALL FOR THEM TOO MUCH). Then it happened!! The magic words "I MADE A MISTAKE I WANT TO WORK ON US" I was elated!

But guess what?! 2 weeks later she was confused again! I told her leave me alone do not bother me delete me from everything(toughest thing I have had to do in life so far).

 

We cut all ties, I was miserable!! So I am going on about my way and finally decided to try and go on a date! Not to start a relationship, but to get out! Had a good time with the female and we became friends. The urges to Break NC kept getting stronger! And again i broke NC! But this time I didn't sound needy or anything just a simple "HI" we caught up briefly. Again I felt like a junky after!!

 

 

After a bit of reflection and getting myself to perk up, I came home to an email from the ex: She stated a lot, and confessed that she wanted to marry me and that she broke up with me because of fear!! Fear that I was too good to be true, and that she wants to start over and live together the whole nine! Here I am confused, elated, happy, scared...But still TRUSTING her! And that is the main thing is TRUST! We never lied to each other, no cheating and communicated fairly well.

 

She text and called I let it sit for a bit then I called her, and she began to apologize over and over again, and how much regret she has for leaving me, and stated the one person she loved the most she tried to push away! Stated she wants to talk this all out and work on a FOREVER relationship!

 

NOW THE BALL IS IN MY COURT!! Yes I am going to go meet and talk with her (As this is the girl I want to marry) Yes I more than want to try again, and Yes I am happy she came to me with this!!! But, I am not going to jump in head first!! She has a lot to prove all her words, she has a lot of making up to do!!

 

Anyhow, my point of this is, just as all have said FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS on you!!! Change yourself for you, be better than you were! It's an energy thing! Meaning if you put out positive energy to the universe it will send it right back!! If you put out negative it will send it right bakc! SO force that smile, get out of bed, go for that jog, hang with that friend!! And watch what happens!!

[SCJACK]

Since you broke NC and said hi.. do you think she would have sent you that email if you hadn't? So in that case.. breaking NC isn't that bad afterall.. only after she said she wanted you back.

[bojangles]

Glad to hear things are working in your favor! I just got dumped a week ago so who am I to be giving advice? In all seriousness, do not dive back into it. Make her work for it and show you that she wants it. Like you said, she has a lot to prove. Not just with words but through action and time. She has nothing to make up for if you're giving it a new chance. Just be cautious that she's not using you for her ego or as a crutch. Take it slow and make her earn back what she gave up. I hope I'm as lucky as you for my ex to miss me like that. I will not go on relying on it though.