goro1983 Posted March 22, 2014 Posted March 22, 2014 Hi there, My heart feel completely shattered and I don't know how to move on from ex wife. I'm almost 31 and I met my ex when were both 16. She was very much infatuated with me at that age and it wasn't long before we started dating. She came from a background where she always felt very in-secure and not very pretty. But I saw a beauty within her that nobody else could see. Over the next couple of years we got serious and by 19 had run away and gotten married. Life couldn't have been more perfect then. Problem was I was too young and immature to deal with the situation. As time went on I became too possessive and dependent on her. I wouldn't like it when she would go out friends or do anything independant of me. I myself stopped living and didn't make any friends or social of my own. Jobwise I drifted in and out of several jobs never providing her with any finincial stability. At first we used to just argue. Then slowly as I started losing control, I became violent towards her. I used too emotionally abuse her as well. This went on for 10 years and finally and rightly so, she had enough. She walked out and I was devasted. It was like a huge wake up call and to the horrible things I had been for to her. I begged and pleaded with her to give me another chance. I was fortunate enough that she did and from that day I made sure to provide her with everything she had missed out on because of me. I got my anger issues under control, got a well paying job and tried to as best as I could atone for my sins. That last year was great for both of us. I treated her the way I should have and she seemed genuinely happy. However, something in her had changed. She started becoming more and more distant as time went by. Eventually, about a week before Christmas, she told me she couldn't do it anymore and that even though she would always love me, she wasn't in love with me anymore. And now here I am 3 months later. Ive moved out of the flat and trying pick up the remaining pieces of my life and trying to deal with extreme guilt and regret over the things I have done to her. She started dating a guy 8 years younger. We work for the same company and seeing her everyday breaks my heart. I keep reminding myself that my pain is only a few months old. She had to go through worse for a decade. I don't know how to move on as I look back now and realise the monster i was back then. I miss her terribly and hope that the other guy can give her the happiness she deserved from me.
Speakingofwhich Posted March 22, 2014 Posted March 22, 2014 Goro, you sound like a wonderful person. Time is a great healer. Continue working on yourself possibly beginning new pursuits, hobbies, friendships, whatever.
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