daddylongleg Posted March 14, 2014 Posted March 14, 2014 (edited) I've only been in one relationship and it lasted nine years. We were best friends. She didn't have any other friends, and I didn't have any other good friends, just a couple of buddies. We did everything together. We lived together the entire time. We rarely fought. In fact, in the course of the nine years, we never had a fight that resulted in us being mad at each other for more than a few hours. We never even had make-up sex because there was never anything to make-up from. We were still hanging out, having fun up until the end. It was like she just became a different person over the course of a few weeks, and that was it. Things got kind of strained for about a month before we broke up, but that was because she was working so much. It was like she flipped a switch and all of a sudden I was a stranger to her. She'd text me like "I just saw you and your dad drive by," like I was just a casual acquaintance, while I was in midst of utter turmoil, devastation. It was like she couldn't even come close to sensing how huge it was for me. It was absolute. She basically cut me off completely, demanded that I move out, and wouldn't talk to me at all for a few months, except little pokes and prods, until I was an emotional wreck. Then, I believe she used my state as further evidence that she wanted nothing to do with me. Yeah, I definitely pushed her a way at that point. It was like it meant nothing to her, at all. She treated it as though we had only been together for a few months. I mean, she just gave me a few perfunctory reasons, but wouldn't talk to me for more than 30-minutes. It's been about a year and a half. It's been about a year since I've spoken to her. I haven't been looking at pictures of her or anything. I've just been trying to forget, but it's not getting any easier. In fact, I feel worse. I feel more empty. I feel more hopeless. I was doing all kinds of ****, but then I had a dream about her, and it all came crashing down. Now, I dream of her every night, and I feel like I'm living a nightmare. I feel like I'm in a constant state of anguish. I stayed with her all that time because I loved her. I know why she broke up with me. She found the idea exciting. As soon as she realized that she could break up with me and start on the adventure of a new life, thinking about me felt stale to her. Those two feelings - the excitement of a change, and the staleness of the same - were all it took. She told me she wanted a "deep romance" like it is in "the beginning." She told me that it grossed her out that I had only had sex with her. Edited March 14, 2014 by daddylongleg
RDawg Posted March 14, 2014 Posted March 14, 2014 Sounds like your ex is a bit messed up. Be pleased that you're rid of her and carry on with your life. What other choice do you have? 1
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