CadeYeager Posted March 12, 2014 Posted March 12, 2014 - It's been a while since my exGF left me, and though I don't want her back even it given the opportunity, I feel like it's left me in a state of emotion that I can't seem to shrug off. BTW I am in NC. - To be honest I really want to be in a relationship where I feel true warmth, love, and care. I think we all want that. Here's a story, please bear with me: - I'm 21 now, but back in the 7th grade (I know most of you will be rolling your eyes, but please just hear me out) I was dating this amazing girl for a year. We cared for each other, we always appreciated and cared for the timeS we spent together, never fought, etc. I TRULY and HONESTLY loved this girl. I know I know "what do preteens know about love?" Let me get to my point. - We attended a friends birthday party at a skating rink one time. While going around the track holding hands, I started to lose my balance. For humor I exaggerated it to make her laugh, I yelled out "WHAT IF I FALL!?!" - She calmly and sincerely said "Then I'll fall with you." This wasn't just a "yeah I'll literally fall with you" but more of a reassurance that she would stick with me through thick and thin. I long for that.... - I know I was young at the time, but I was overwhelmed with a sense of awe. To this day I remember her saying that and it still hits me so hard, because I FELT serenity when she said that. She HAD my back and actually CARED. Looking back at my previous relationship, I realize that I never got that feeling. - I WANT that again. I want that feeling of " true partnership." My dilemma is that I feel so damaged from my previous relationship that it will prevent me from opening up again and keeps me from experiencing what I experienced years ago. I've had a few females take interest in me since my break up, but I feel so emotionally drained, that my energy to put into a new girl isn't there, which in turn would keep me from experiencing that care and love. - Please don't look down on me with the story I shared. I understand that you might have your opinions about it, but the love and experience I shared was real to me. - Does anyone have advice on how I can break this wall I have up?
ConfusedHumanBeing Posted March 12, 2014 Posted March 12, 2014 - It's been a while since my exGF left me, and though I don't want her back even it given the opportunity, I feel like it's left me in a state of emotion that I can't seem to shrug off. BTW I am in NC. - To be honest I really want to be in a relationship where I feel true warmth, love, and care. I think we all want that. Here's a story, please bear with me: - I'm 21 now, but back in the 7th grade (I know most of you will be rolling your eyes, but please just hear me out) I was dating this amazing girl for a year. We cared for each other, we always appreciated and cared for the timeS we spent together, never fought, etc. I TRULY and HONESTLY loved this girl. I know I know "what do preteens know about love?" Let me get to my point. - We attended a friends birthday party at a skating rink one time. While going around the track holding hands, I started to lose my balance. For humor I exaggerated it to make her laugh, I yelled out "WHAT IF I FALL!?!" - She calmly and sincerely said "Then I'll fall with you." This wasn't just a "yeah I'll literally fall with you" but more of a reassurance that she would stick with me through thick and thin. I long for that.... - I know I was young at the time, but I was overwhelmed with a sense of awe. To this day I remember her saying that and it still hits me so hard, because I FELT serenity when she said that. She HAD my back and actually CARED. Looking back at my previous relationship, I realize that I never got that feeling. - I WANT that again. I want that feeling of " true partnership." My dilemma is that I feel so damaged from my previous relationship that it will prevent me from opening up again and keeps me from experiencing what I experienced years ago. I've had a few females take interest in me since my break up, but I feel so emotionally drained, that my energy to put into a new girl isn't there, which in turn would keep me from experiencing that care and love. - Please don't look down on me with the story I shared. I understand that you might have your opinions about it, but the love and experience I shared was real to me. - Does anyone have advice on how I can break this wall I have up? You're 21....you have LOADS of life left to feel that again. Your ex wasn't it. You'll find it when you aren't expecting it. Dont dwell and move forward
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