Time is pretty amazing

[love_pink]

I hope this isn't too long but I felt the need to get this off my chest and post a little update on how I've been doing lately!

 

So back in December I got dumped by my first ever boyfriend 2 days before my 18th which was on the 22nd.. And I guess you could say I was an absolute mess! Even though we'd only been dating for 5.5 months, it was upsetting because he was my first boyfriend and I really got spoiled by it!

 

He had dumped me over text with barely any explanation at all (him just saying he wasn't happy anymore). But I later found out he told our mutual friend that I was in the relationship just for looks.. And let me just say I have absolute no idea where that came from and it is most definitely not true.

 

I had pestered him for a couple weeks, in which I regret lol. But what can I say? I was hurt during my birthday and the week of Christmas. I admit I did the begging thing, and it still haunts me to this day out of embarrassment, but I can't do anything about it. I had texted him a happy New Years and in result he tells me to f*** off. I was livid after that!!! But it quickly went away and two days later we had an actual conversation about "us" and he told me he couldn't see us as friends blah blah and I agreed to it as much as I hated to do so. NC was finally initiated and I then discovered LS! How convenient I find this site after I do all the things you SHOULDNT do after a breakup.... Oh well. I learn from my mistakes lol!

 

After that I was miserable for a few weeks. I sat around and did nothing during that time. Researched on how to get an ex back, going on Facebook only to check when the last time he was online, and all that jazz. Trust me though, I'm done with that phase!!!!

 

February comes along and I realize how pathetic I'm being and I start working out at home with my precious workout DVDs. I deleted his number off my phone, I got a little haircut, bought some new clothes, and I wasn't thinking about him that much. I started using Facebook again (NOT checking the last time he was online). Started posting pictures on Instagram. Just doing regular teen things again.

 

But one day, I literally woke up and felt something I've never felt before. I felt happy. I didn't have any dreams of him anymore. I didn't think about him at all. I believe this was the day I REALLY just "let go". I knocked him off my mental pedestal, and realized all the negatives about him and that someone new will come along and treat me even better, and that I'm willing to wait for him. I deleted all the screenshots of how to get an ex back off my phone, and deleted everything that reminded me of him. I was officially done and over him. It's hard though, because my mom and his mom are best friends (they graduated high school together), my aunt is good friends with his older sister, our mutual friends are all associated with one another... Basically everything leads back to us.

 

It's funny because his birthday is next Wednesday and I have no interest in wishing him a good one at all. Why should I wish him happiness when he did what he did during MY special day?? Haha.. His timing was so disrespectful and because of that, my friends and family all hate him.. Can't do anything about that! Lol!

 

I know I've only been in this relationship for not even half a year, compared to those long term ones, but I just want to say things will get better if you believe it will. Get up off that butt and release some endorphins by working out intensely! Trust me, you will feel so darn good after it! I'm still a newbie to relationships, but time really is a wonderful thing. Just give it time. So smile because you are in charge of your own happiness :-)

[jphcbpa]

Good for you! Be thankful for this as a learning experience. Embrace the change and allow it to take you to the next phase of your life, with or without a man.

[mea_M]

Glad to hear! You are right! We are in charge of our own happiness. That's such a great thing to understand in life. Rock on!

 

Mea :-)