Raena Posted March 10, 2014 Posted March 10, 2014 GettingStronger... it's nice to hear that you are doing well now. I too am improving. It's been 5 months since DDay and every day gets easier and easier. I don't feel so gutted and worthless and ashamed anymore. I'm moving on and up. I've lost about 30 pounds, starting eating better, making some new friends, keeping busy and spending time analyzing what my role was in the gut wrenching experience of finding out that the man I loved, didn't love me enough to be faithful and chose to leave me for a younger woman. It hasn't been easy. There are days where I just want to curl up in a ball and forget it all happened but I trudge forward instead. No more anxiety attacks and my anger towards my ex is subsiding. We didn't choose to reconcile and in the end, I think that's for the best. Best wishes to ya! 1
Author gettingstronger Posted March 10, 2014 Author Posted March 10, 2014 Gutted- I am in Colorado- and no, it does not matter what size you are-you can get to a healthier happier you- if running or yoga does not appeal to you-start reading or writing-point being-something for you-I was scared to death when I went to my first yoga class but found it to be mixed in terms of fitness so there were plenty of people like me that tipped right over rather than being able to do anything- cooking is big fun- we do enjoy a task we do together- it sounds like you are still in the depressed low self esteem phase-I stayed there a while too-but once you start to pull yourself out of it, it just takes off and you feel better-be kind to you- Raena- you are one of the strongest women I have seen on here- what you husband and his AP did/are doing is just sick-I am proud of you that you have done so well with so much junk going on-You will be someones little gem one day because you have the capacity to weather a storm like no one I have seen- 2
i am gutted Posted March 10, 2014 Posted March 10, 2014 thanks stronger.......yes I admit I am still in a bit of depression and definitely am insecure in myself. Years of being someone for everyone else instead of being myself. have always had a weight issue and have been reminded of it for years by family etc. long story lol. I have been doing study papers for aged care and have accomplished one lot and received certificate in national quals for that so I have another 4 to complete for the next stage. After all this turned to custard in July I lost all want to do what I was doing. Just sick of being the one caring for others all the time. I know that sounds selfish but hey I couldn't look after myself let alone oldies that needed 100% attention. I was struggling to keep myself together and look after my kids and home life. So I am going to get my head down and complete these other papers and get them into work for marking. once that is done, it another cert under my belt. How has your day been?? 1
Author gettingstronger Posted March 10, 2014 Author Posted March 10, 2014 That's a big yeah for you! I think the sense of accomplishment will do wonders for you. So, maybe you are not ready to turn that corner, but you are walking towards it! Celebrate you.
i am gutted Posted March 11, 2014 Posted March 11, 2014 I think that part of my problem is that others (family and some friends) think I should be over it. so I think that yea I am turning that corner on some days but then others its back to square one? I was having a few good days but it turned again........will keep looking for that good feeling of peace again.
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