Almost 60 Days No Contact & Feeling Like I'm About to Regress

[Winterkiss]

About two months ago, the guy I was dating broke up with my over the phone after inviting me over for dinner to meet his family. To keep the story short, 2 days after the dinner, he called me and told me that his family hated me, that they said I was raised by wolves, that I had no social skills, that I did not know how to interact, and that they had asked him 'what the f*** he was thinking', and that I would never reach his family's standards, so we should no longer see each other. I was more educated (in terms of attainment) than this guy, had a full time job, which he did not, but... I was not white. Anyway, the whole story is too long, but it is here.

 

I am approaching 60 days no contact (I had stopped counting, but I counted this morning and I think I'm on like day 53), and a week ago I had the genius idea to open up an online dating profile once again. As soon as I logged in, the first picture I saw was that of the guy I had dated, and as if that were not enough, he also came up as a top match, visited my profile with a fake profile, and also with his real one. I had been doing very well for the past seven weeks, but began to feel anger and curiosity once again after I opened up this site. A part of me would like to reach out, because I am genuinely curious, but I also know that this feeling is fueled more by anger than by curiosity. I am posting here, because it always helps to tell other people, and I really need support so that I don't regress.

 

As a side note, I have since closed my dating profile, because my desire to reach out makes it clear to me that I am not yet ready.

[B1989]

Weird I'm around the same amount of time for nc and our stories are similar although she never told me that her family said those things but suspect them. I am starting to get those same feelings and when I do i tell myself she ended it you have to keep pressing. Enjoy yourself.

[hurts2death]

i also keep saying this and i feel better

Weird I'm around the same amount of time for nc and our stories are similar although she never told me that her family said those things but suspect them. I am starting to get those same feelings and when I do i tell myself she ended it you have to keep pressing. Enjoy yourself.

[TrblinMN]

The more I hear stories that are encouraging, the more it makes it easier for me to reach that 60 days. I hope I hear more of them.