jwhite Posted November 16, 2012 Posted November 16, 2012 It has been almost three weeks BU. Yesterday, I was doing ok in the morning I guess. Mornings are terrible anyway. I was at work and started to read enotalone and Loveshack as usual. I started a read on a "list" that someone made of all the reasons their ex treated them badly. I felt that some of these reasons described what I was going through in my relationship as well. This affected me and I started to think of these things and it motived me to be happy for myself. I felt REALLY good that I was going to be a person who I could see improving greatly in the future along with the realization of the causes of my low self esteem. It made me very confident so I thought that I would continue these thoughts for a while. It seemed as though it turned into self centereness arrogance after a while and then it seemed like the minimal progress I had made was lost. I know that I have to love myself and focus on ME. But, was that arrogance yesterday? If not, I could not be possible healing this fast right? I dont want to grieve wrong and come out bad in the end. Although, I am starting to accept that the is really gone and I feel that I am starting to let go a bit. Am I doing the right things? We were together for almost 5 years. Is it ok for a part of me to still think she is coming back too(like this morning)? It ended badly and here is my STORY
Tmo2 Posted November 16, 2012 Posted November 16, 2012 If not, I could not be possible healing this fast right? I dont want to grieve wrong and come out bad in the end. We were together for almost 5 years. Is it ok for a part of me to still think she is coming back too(like this morning)? It is possible that you are healing quickly. I am living a similar situation as we speak. Some days I feel very good confident and strong, because on those occasions I KNOW this is good for me, it is the opportunity to better myself. Why didn't it work?? For me there were many reasons on my side, my attitude towards the relationship. On other days I ponder and miss her, then my optimism goes down, and I feel sad. But this is normal after a long relationship (mine was 2.5yrs) I still feel like she could be comming back, but I cant count on that... I have asked her more then once and I'v recieved a definitive NO... It probably will never come back, since I was not attractive prior to the breakup. I had many personnal issues and was acting like a wuss. Why would she come back to something she didnt like and left at the first place?? Well.. to me the only time and reason she would its when I will prove that I am different. But by then we might both have moved on seriously and not be interested to find out'' So work on bettering yourself and try not to think to much about the relationship, Best of luck.
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