InAFog Posted August 27, 2012 Posted August 27, 2012 This whole thing has blown my mind. My whole life has been filled with loss and tragedy. And this, THIS, is the hardest thing I've ever gone through. I cannot believe how (i won't say "weak") fragile I really am. I thought i was so strong and could get through anything. But I guess in all other situations I always had to be strong for other people. I was the "rock" that held the family together through our hard times. But now, that it's my own personal situation, I can't be as strong just for myself... It's sad, and very mind opening. I feel so.... vulnerable. not a feeling I'm used to. Wow.
ihateslowjams Posted August 27, 2012 Posted August 27, 2012 This whole thing has blown my mind. My whole life has been filled with loss and tragedy. And this, THIS, is the hardest thing I've ever gone through. I cannot believe how (i won't say "weak") fragile I really am. I thought i was so strong and could get through anything. But I guess in all other situations I always had to be strong for other people. I was the "rock" that held the family together through our hard times. But now, that it's my own personal situation, I can't be as strong just for myself... It's sad, and very mind opening. I feel so.... vulnerable. not a feeling I'm used to. Wow. I know what you mean. In the past, I was never emotionally attached to anyone, including my own family. I grew up with many people in my house, but I remained distant from each and everyone of them, never creating a bond. This type of growth was relayed to my friendships as well. I never needed to stay in contact with any of my friends on a regular basis and if they ever stopped contacting me, it wouldn't even phase me. I took great pride in being capable of leaving anyone on the drop of a dime, but I can't get over my ex one bit. She's the only one that I've ever created an emotional bond with and losing it gives me that feeling of loneliness that I've never felt before. I grew up practically alone, but this is the first time I've ever felt it. Just like the advice you gave me earlier, we gotta keep on truckin' and just wait for the day we feel much better. Just know that you're not alone and we will all get there one day. 1
Author InAFog Posted August 27, 2012 Author Posted August 27, 2012 i love how this forum has such a support system of hurt/help help/hurt. The saying is true that he who helps heal heals himself. A tribute to the WWN! Thanks. By the way - - dig your screen name, makes me smile 1
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