Brokendude no more!!! Only read if ur ready to move on

[Brokendude]

i woke up today feeling amazing. its only been a little over a month and i cant believe how much ive progressed. I feel so in control of my life. eversince we broke up i just kept building myself back up. and honestly guys, its my first day off in a long time and i had time for reflection today, and i said DAMN I AM SO PROUD OF HOW I HANDLED THIS BREAKUP. I REFUSED REFUSED REFUSED TO QUIT ON MYSELF. one month is soon but i know and feel within me that the healing is ridiculously on its way. i keep repeating this on every thread, and i dont care if u guys get sick of me saying this, IMPROVE YOURSELVES and KEEP THE FIGHT!!!! i will engrave this in ur heads until u get to the place im in, because i know how it is to be sooooo down and have no control over anything. GYM, WORK, SCHOOL, FRIENDS, BOOKS, JOURNALS, MOVIES, these are some of the weapons u can use against that awful ex of urs that HURT YOU. and yes i said awful. anyone that has hurt u has no business living in ur brain. i know this is harsh but guys this is how u have to attack this situation. ur mind and body really is dictated by ur demeanor, please write that down, its very important. if u make urself to be weak, u will be. U can control ur emotions at anytime just refuse refuse refuse to let that ex still control u from afar. u are an amazing amazing amazing person and u hafta believe this and say this to urself with the utmost EFFING CERTAINTY. its so gratifying when people tell me "wow dude u just got out of that long relationship and u seem so unphased." what they dont know is how much effort and hardship i fought to get to that and that makes me so PROUD OF MYSELF and the main reason for that gratification is that i did it FOR MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY, thats what gives me strength thats what keeps me fighting this break up, a break up thats trying to rob and beat me up and leave me for dead. i proactively dedicate every ounce of me to say to myself I AM SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS CRAP IM GOIN THRU and my ex is soooooooo wrong about me, damn she let go of someone who has the RESILIENCY, fortitude, and strength to get over something as devastating as this. if anything she is weak!!!!!!!! very weak, she ran at the first signs of trouble, i wouldnt wanna be with a quitter anyway, i wanna go thru life having a woman stand next to me when life is killing me and making everything so difficult, and i want that woman to always love me even more when im vulnerable, THATS WHAT I DESERVE, AND DAMMIT I WILL GET HER!!!!!!!! I DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER COZ MY LOVE AND MY INTENTIONS ARE SOOOO PURE AND ONLY SOMEONE AMAZING DESERVES TO GET THAT AND ITS CERTAINLY NOT MY EX!!!! thankful for this breakup in a way coz it unlocked so much more potential i didnt know i have. so what if my ex was attractive? I AM TOO. so what if she has a great smile? I HAVE THE BEST LAUGH. so what if she was charming, I HAVE THE BIGGEST HEART. guys im not conceited by any means but this is all a byproduct of all the self investing ive been doing, i work myself to the bones day and night to get this mentality back, and im living proof that the sooner u gain that bearing, the sooner ull look at ur ex and ur situation and laugh, and say DAMN GIRL, U MISSED OUT!!!!!! i truly hope u see this post to what it really is, its not me gloating or belittling anyone coz i have the utmost respect for all u guys, in fact i wrote this hoping to truly make a difference and genuinely help u guys see the light and the silver lining in all of this. i truly hope u guys start investing again in urelves rather than waiting for that phonecall or wondering if u should call this sorry person that truly DONT CARE ABOUT U RIGHT THIS SEC. theres only one person u should be sharing all ur happiness with right now, and that person is THE MOST AMAZING, CARING, UNDERSTANDING, GENUINE, FULL OF LIFE PERSON, this person is YOU

[Dblock10]

good post brokendude.

 

i agree with those things, you have to think positively, if you give into weakness it will make you weak.

[Pogona]

Easy there, killer. You're right and I'm happy for you, but such unrestrained enthusiasm could set you up for a nasty backslide. That has happened to me before. You really want to get yourself back to a stable "normal", not whip back and forth like a metronome. Not to mention that all that esteem-boosting could shatter if you got dumped a second time, and leave you in a worse place than ever.

 

Find peace, real peace and stability. Then you'll be ready for anything.

[Brokendude]

Dude this is not my first breakup, i kno where i am at this point of the breakup. Prior to this 2 yr relationship i got over a seven yr relationship, engaged and lived together. Its not my first rodeo, i wouldnt try to impart wisdom without any experience. Im actually doing all this because i learned from that first experience, i didnt fight then and the suffering was so unnecessarily prolonged. Do i have setbacks? U bet ya dude but my overall state is stable. Theres lots of younger guys here that are lost and i was once that kid, i dont ever want them to go thru what i did. I kno they will learn on their own but to hear someone whos been there share their experience might give em hope that they got this. People heal differently, this is how i heal i face it, i go thru it not around it. Ill have my own setbacks and thats only for myself to deal with, but as far as im progression i hope people get something out of my posts. These posts r opinions u guys dont hafta agree, if motivating and helping others is a crime then put me in heartbreak jail, i wont stop fighting and reachin out to people if it helps us all heal

Edited August 19, 2012 by Brokendude