hopelessromantic29 Posted August 19, 2012 Posted August 19, 2012 Hey all...My bf broke up with me over a month ago, and we've been NC ever since. We were together for a year, but have known each other for 3 years. We broke up because we got in a fight, and we've had those fights before. We were doing really well too. Before we broke up, we planned on going to Vegas and a beerfest together, but I ended up doing those events with friends. Although I went with my friends, it wasn't the same. I know it couldn't compare to going with someone you love, but the woulda, coulda, shouldas got the best of me, and I miss him so much. I saw couples everywhere I went, and kept thinking, "That could have been us." BUT I am proud to say that I did not break NC, and just cried to myself alone. I am sad, and am taking it day by day, trying to improve myself, and continuing like before, but it does feel empty. Especially on rough days, I would depend on him to cheer me up or comfort me, but I've been doing that on my own. I have great friends who have been there for me, but I can't keep pestering them with my issues. When will it get better? I sooooo badly want to know if he misses me as much as I miss him, and if he thinks there's still a chance. Because I know my heart still belongs to him, and I know we can work on our issues, but I'm afraid to take any more risks. I can't be the one to keep reaching out. He's reached out before too, but this time, it feels different. I keep envisioning our lives together, and I know I've gotta stop. When will this pain ever end? 1
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