andymb79 Posted August 18, 2012 Posted August 18, 2012 It's been a month and a few days since she left and I'm still in pain. I think it's harder today cause the weekend just started and things run thru my head (what is she doing, who is she with?). I work weekend evenings and I drive for 8 hours so I have a lot of time to think and wonder. She left after 4 years. I've been moping around the house for the past month but feel I'm ready to get back out there. It's just every time I feel a little better, I know it's temporary. I feel lost and lonely since she's been gone. I'm 33, live in a rural area (had to move here for my job), and work evenings and weekends. I think the chances of meeting someone new are slim. I've been nc for the past two weeks which I know is for the best. I know I'm better off without her but always catch myself wondering when she is going to call and come back. Deep down inside I know she will try to come back but I know it needs to be over. I've already taken her back three times in the past. My emotions are everywhere right now. One minute I only want to be laying in bed holding her and the next minute I wish she didn't exist. I'm just lost. This isn't my first tough breakup and I know time will heel. Everything happens for a reason. I just got home from work and have been thinking about this the past few hours and needed to vent. Thanks.
WordvAction Posted August 18, 2012 Posted August 18, 2012 Dude everything your saying is on the right path. Give yourself time for your heart to come around to what your mind is telling you. Keep up the good work and NC; btw, 1 month isn't long at all, don't be so hard on yourself
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