Floored Posted August 17, 2012 Posted August 17, 2012 Went out last night since I had today off, it was actually with a bunch of her friends too. Got way too drunk, ended up calling her at two in the morning. She talked for an hour somehow. It got really pathetic. I said that we were supposed to be together and breaking up was a horrible mistake, that I wanted a life with her, that we were supposed to be having babies, REALLY stupid things to say anyone, most especially an ex. She told me her family doesn't like me for leaving; I guess she really did twist it into me not supporting her, which isn't fair since it was her calling the shots but doesn't matter anyway. Then she told me she hasn't loved me all year, that she needed someone new, that she would never have feelings for me but wanted a healthy relationship with me, and peppered the whole conversation with calling me an ass****. Calling her at two was bad. Just one of those days I guess, where I wish I could take back the last twelve hours so they never happened. One of those years really. I could text her an apology, but what's the use? There you have it all, if you were curious about calling your ex and seeing how they were, they'll probably just call you an ass****, tell you things you never wanted to hear, and say that dating you was a mistake. Who else is super excited for another great weekend avoiding past feelings? Already kicked mine off with a level 8 mistake, what are ya'll doing? Half marathon tomorrow for me, biking a new trail on Sunday, should be solid. I'll have to stay away from the gin, rum, whiskey and vodka though; somehow, the mixture of all that makes me do stupid things.
Mike_d Posted August 17, 2012 Posted August 17, 2012 whats done is done, no need to beat yourself up, no one here will, go easy on yourself, mistakes happen, what is important is what you learned. 1- no drunk calls, ever, and 2 - avoid the booze for awhile and 3 - start your nc date today
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