youngnlove89 Posted August 15, 2012 Posted August 15, 2012 Today is very hard for me. It is your absence that stings me. It is your voice I miss. Sitting here with my mind going 120 mph, I think of everything I loved about you. I think of things that are hard to talk about. With a lump in my throat, I'm trying to be strong. But I can't help but miss these things. I don't know how to not. I miss how you used to kiss the top of my hand. I miss your tight hugs and forehead kisses. I miss you lifting my chin with your finger and kissing my lips. I miss those soft lips. I miss your arms around me, I miss you kissing my neck. I miss joking with you, teasing you, making you laugh...I miss that silly laugh of yours. I miss hiding in places and scaring the crap out of you. I missed you trying to scare me back. I miss those eyes looking back at me. I miss our conversations. I miss my best friend. I miss having the privledge to talk to you about anything. I miss your advice. I miss your hands wrapped in mine. I miss your lap that I used to sit on. I miss your crowsfeet that I used to make fun of. I miss that smile and knowing I was the reason behind it. I miss your love. What does missing someone mean? Is it the absence of something familiar? When you run your hands across the side of your bed he used to lay on...the cold sheets are bare. When you turn around and they aren't behind you, they're gone. When the weekend comes and your phone is silent. When you make dinner for one, instead of two. When a show comes on that you used to watch together, you suddenly change the channel. When you still have his toothbrush in your bathroom, but you can't find the heart to throw it away. When you reach for him, and he isn't there anymore. Missing someone is realizing that they are gone. That spot in your heart is empty now. My heart is heavy tonight. I lost my best friend. I lost my love. I'm empty. 1
g450 Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 You must still be fresh in it. It will get better in time. Felt all that myself for almost a year. I feel nothing for her now. I only feel sorry for her. You will get to that place as well, in time. 1
Author youngnlove89 Posted August 16, 2012 Author Posted August 16, 2012 You must still be fresh in it. It will get better in time. Felt all that myself for almost a year. I feel nothing for her now. I only feel sorry for her. You will get to that place as well, in time. My heart hurts so bad. How long did it take? A year you say? wow, I don't want to go through this for a year!
Sav Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 My heart hurts so bad. How long did it take? A year you say? wow, I don't want to go through this for a year! Don't worry. Different people need different time spans. Furthermore, it also counts on the amount of determination that you have . As long as you do something about it, such as keeping up with your NC (Good job btw), don't stalk, keep busy or take up something new and go out to meet new people, You'll be over it soon. Just remember to hang in there! It's his loss not yours
Author youngnlove89 Posted August 16, 2012 Author Posted August 16, 2012 Don't worry. Different people need different time spans. Furthermore, it also counts on the amount of determination that you have . As long as you do something about it, such as keeping up with your NC (Good job btw), don't stalk, keep busy or take up something new and go out to meet new people, You'll be over it soon. Just remember to hang in there! It's his loss not yours I've already deleted his number from my phone, he doesn't have FB so I can't worry about that, and I'm going to start looking for a part time job to fill my time. make some extra money to spend on pampering myself!
Sav Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 I've already deleted his number from my phone, he doesn't have FB so I can't worry about that, and I'm going to start looking for a part time job to fill my time. make some extra money to spend on pampering myself! Good for you! Although I deleted my ex's number, I still remember it clearly in my head T.T. And yea! Start taking care of yourself! Gotta learn to love yourself (something my ex said lol) before you can start loving others! . Take the breakup as a lesson and take something out of this!!
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