LoverOfDance Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 If you know my story, you can guess that I'm talking about the guy who has a gf - the guy I've been trying to get over for 6 months now. After two months of NC, I ended up going to his class today. Not because I couldn't stop myself but because I had a moment of epiphany. I was at another studio waiting to take a class which wasn't starting in an hour when it happened. The teacher came in and I realized I was slightly attracted to him. It's just an attraction, nothing serious. I realized I couldn't run away from feelings of attraction. They are natural. I know this sounds bad, but right now I hate having those feelings. I don't know how to handle them. They become too intense too quickly even when I don't know the person I'm attracted to. They are really distracting 4 me rht now. TBH, I don't want to feel that way in another five years. I just want to focus on dance. I realized he might be the lesser of two evils. If I stay at the new studio, my attraction 4 the new guy might grow and become too intense 4 me to handle. It's nothing creepy, it's just that when I feel that way towards someone, I want to be around them all the time. Not literally, but as often as I can. I want to talk to them. When they are around, I can't focus on anything else but them. It's really difficult especially if they are your teacher, lol. I realized I can't run away from my feelings. They'll follow me wherever I go so I decided to go to his class just to avoid being around the other guy. The problem is that now, I want to keep going to his class(the guy with a gf). How do I get over this addiction. I can stay away from him but he hasn't stayed away from my mind. Do I need to see a therapist? Cause I'm thinking of doing that right now. What do you guys think? I'm I addicted?
Author LoverOfDance Posted August 9, 2012 Author Posted August 9, 2012 I just realized something - my first crush lasted for 6 years. Maybe that kind of infatuation is just repeating itself. In fact I'm pretty sure it is and I think I'm pretty sure now that I'll get over him. I just need that door to close but I don't know how to close it. Maybe when he gets married to his gf - maybe that will help me finally give up and truly move on cause I remember I started moving on from my first crush when he left my school and transferred to another school. I had no choice. He was gone 4ever. It just happened naturally. I didn't even realize when I gave up. Maybe when he gets married, it'll finally hit me. Cause now, I'm just forcing it and it's not happening. Maybe I should just let things play out the way they want to. Eventually things will work themselves out.
Axton Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 Are you sure the majority of your attraction isn't based on his unavailability?
Author LoverOfDance Posted August 9, 2012 Author Posted August 9, 2012 Are you sure the majority of your attraction isn't based on his unavailability? Nah, really don't think so. When I started liking him, I thought he was single. I thought him and his gf were just business partners and when I found out they were together, it was too late.
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