nc or contact? tried texting her and calling after day 4 of break up. got ignored

[icyboi123]

Girlfriend two years suddenly says she wants a break and now she is ignoring me?

let me start off by saying me and my girlfriend of two years have done many things together were always together we went to Disney we were supposed to go to slitter bond this summer and every single day we pretty much spent together we always were intimate andEverything seemed perfect the only thing that wasn't perfect was me but she always wanted me she never gave a sign she didn't want me until the day she said she didn't miss me and didnt wanna lead me on lmfao this girl is lying out of her ass! maybe trying to prove a point but i dont know. she never talked any other guys and she was talking about us getting married and how bad she wanted to get pregnant with my babyI have been a jerk I have had times where I say bad things to her I tell her I don't want her anymore and I pretty much degrade her but she always is understanding she loves me and she says it's okay baby just never leave me Well recently she has this newfrindStephanie and they're always doing stuff together and her friend pretty much kisses her butt b Facebook pictures saying I love you so much best friend you're so perfect and amazing I'm just so happy you're my friend And honestly her friend keeps saying that hey you can do so much better like yeah he has the looks but he doesn't treat you right and all that **** so one day we were laying in bed and she gets a phone call from her friend starts talking about you there at the beach how she misses my girlfriend and then all the sudden she goes yeah I was talking to my sister and my sister said whenever your boyfriend acts the way he does that It usually means he's cheating on you and I heard that but her friend didn't know I heard it and my girlfriend was like no he would never do that he loves me so muchMia my girlfriend have been in many arguments we always make up though I honestly don't think we could live without each other but this is the whole thing okay this weekend she went on a trip for FFA with her friend Stephanie the one I was talking about earlierAnd why I got mad at her the day she loves so I didn't Texter in the next day she texted me saying why didn't you text me and I told her why and that I loved her and everything and she was totally cool with it well I was working out with my friends so I just kept it like short and sweet and the next dayI didn't text her at all then Thursday when she came back I texted her and she ignored me completely so me and her are both raising animals in at that face so I walked up there and I said hey babe why haven't you texted me and she goes I didn't miss youI didn't miss us arguing I just didn't miss you and her face had no emotion on it so I got mad started saying stuff I didn't mean and said if you want to be like that then screw you Because when you hear something like that from a girl like this I mean she doesn't go talking to other guys she doesn't go flirting with other guys she takes me back after every stupid thing I have done ever and she was taking pills to be fertile I mean how do you all the sudden just flipped like that after two Years and we're going to the and same school next year we both will be senior but I called her she said she's loved me and I said why are you doing that she said she does not want to leave me on which I think it is not true because I used to just play with her and be like I don't want to be with you anymore And belie the you know I found somebody else which is stupid because I never did I was just saying that But yeah she always gets mad when girls flirt with me but now I waited until last weekend was over and I texted her a huge message and she read it and didnt reply then I called her she didn't pick up and when I see her in person she Just is totally ignoring me I mean how can somebody do that I don't know if she's trying to prove a point but hey it's been a week and two days now and her and that friend Are unsepertable I told her the last time I tried to talk to her that after I knew she read my message and didn't reply I sent a message saying okay listen I know what you're talking about and I agree we should just move on and go our separate ways I have all of your stuff we've come outsideAnd pick it up and she texted me back and said this is Stephanie which is her friend and said I will be by later to get it all of her stuff is still at my house so I mean you would think right that she would have got her stuff by now if she really was over me Also like a month ago she found out I was texting another girl and like I went out with my friends saw her in person that other girl And she had my phone but I was passed out drunk in the morning so she left her ring that I gave her on the fence but I called her talk to her she said I don't want to just take you back I want to prove a point so it's not easy and like I sent her a message and it was sweet she read it send it to her friend Stephanie and Her friend said yeah We made up so listen I know this girl she's honest doesn't she her mom told me it's not another guy she just her feelings changed and she Obviously miss me if she was wondering why I haven't texted her and then

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Then after talking to her mom her mom yesterday which was a week and 2 days after the break. she said yeah the only thing she told me was her feelings just changed and we miss having you around the house but let me tell you this it's not another guy so I mean you have to tell me what do y'all think like this girl never broke up with me she just said she didn't miss me but the reason I think she said that was because she said that I didn't miss her because I was hanging out with friends I didn't talk to her the whole weekend and yeah and like Pretty much we needed a break oh and shes like i love you i dont wanna lead you on and then after day 4 of the break up She was not replying to any of my text and didn't reply to my phone call I called her with a fake caller ID and I used her friend Stephanie's number she picked up and I said why are you ignoring me and she hung up then I sent her that text about I agree we should move on And how I would drop off first because she has her backpack her swimsuits her bras like her shoes everything here She sent me back a text saying hey it's Stephanie I will be by to get the stuff later and she never came and like I'm pretty sure Stephanie wasn't there because why would she have picked up the phone to Stephanie if Stephanie was right there so like honestly maybe I am in denial but like if you knew my situation and how much this girl love me I just don't think it's over because why would she just suddenly one day say that **** to me plus it's not like I got broke up with by being the amazing sweet guy I was a ******* to her and her friend didn't like me I just don't know if I should contact her again because when I see her in person she ****ing avoids me and like I don't want to be avoided and light if what she said was true that she didn't miss me my best feeling in this dude just pretty much ignore her and wait for her to come crying back to me because she got tired of hanging with Stephanie because right now I have a feeling that Stephanie is feeling her up with false hopes and my giving her a fake high to make her think she does not need me but hey I don't know all i know is shes like yeah hes cute but he is such a awful boyyyyyfriend

[YorickBrown]

 

Hey there fellow newbie! I know you're hurting dude. Me too... mostly from reading your post

 

Anyways, I suggest you read this first Guidelines for Posting

 

Seriously, you need to relax. NC, or No Contact means No Contact whatsoever or perhaps, even means Never Contact and it needs time. Like a lot of it!!! I get it. I know. So, you'll need to find something to do in the meantime. Keep yourself busy, find something to do...like say learning to make paragraphs...jk

[zanzi]

give her time and dont talk to her at all its important that you do this, dont drive her further away.

I made that mistake. And it cost me.