Cokeacola Posted June 14, 2012 Posted June 14, 2012 Yesterday I went to my ex's place to collect the last of my things. I had planned to go in July and had it all planned in my head. I realised, I was in denial and creating a scenario in my head that would never happen. I went to collect my stuff and we went to a bar for a chat.... I ordered a large wine which was probably the worst thing I could do. We had light hearted conversation initially and were laughing etc but then I made the mistake of going FULL ON I LOVE YOU MODE. I cringe when I think about it. Anyways, it resulted in him walking away. I sat at the bar, drank some more and started talking to a guy (who really was just seeing if I was ok). My ex comes back in after like 30 mins and the guy I was talking to says 'she cant talk right now, do the right thing and leave.. she needs some time'. Ugh so he walks off and calls me and says 'oh you moved on fast, go have fun with that ****' I go to his, his mum lies and says he isnt there anymore. He calls me again and says 'go flirt with more guys' and I explain that I wasn't flirting and thats really not the point now. I told him that cant he see that I'm hurt. We argued/ I cried / we hugged / I demanded to know why this is happening. A lot of words were exchanged and I left. Anyways, I know enough is enough. I sent him an email this morning saying it's all too much and right now I can't be his friend and pretend everything is normal. I need some time to myself. I told him that I do love him and probably always will and wished him luck. He sent me an email back "I'm sorry for everything I said to you, I didn't mean to be spiteful or nasty. I didn't ever want to hurt your feelings and I am truly sorry that I did. If I could take back everything that happened yesterday I would. I was angry and frustrated but that's no excuse and I'm sorry. I hope you can forgive me, and I hope we can be civil and maybe in the future, friends also. I hope you get everything you want and I want you to be happy. I really don't know what else to say, I really hope you get where and what you want in life and that you are forever happy, that's all I wish. Speak to you soon" I'm not going to reply, I've deleted his telephone number and him from facebook. Gosh, it's just soo difficult. I love him soo much and still in hope that we can be together again. I just don't want to be that stupid girl who wasted away her life away for some guy. I dont know what my question is really. What d'ya think I guess?
mblaakman Posted June 14, 2012 Posted June 14, 2012 Sadly, I'm in the same sort of place. Time is the best option. Once both of you get together what needs to be with yourselves, you could possibly have a future together. Just give it some time and later on reconnect over coffee and share stories and if it isn't meant to be then, at least you tried. Just work on yourself for a while, work out, meet new people, start new hobbies and set goals for yourself! Good things do come to those who wait. Also take a breather from your thoughts with this and relax. Lots of things were said and you were hurt as was he. Who knows right? Clear your head and then you will truly know what is best for the both of you.
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