Author Leandro Posted December 22, 2010 Author Posted December 22, 2010 Well today is another down day. . I miss her a lot, but I will not break NC. I'm just very very down, and it hurts. My internet is being very slow today, so I can't even go into the Coping Chat Room to get some help. Oh well. I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow. Just going to read or play a game.
january2010 Posted December 22, 2010 Posted December 22, 2010 It's okay. We have all been there. And we support you. Tomorrow is another day. And we miss you in the Coping Room
Author Leandro Posted December 22, 2010 Author Posted December 22, 2010 It's okay. We have all been there. And we support you. Tomorrow is another day. And we miss you in the Coping Room Yea, I miss everyone in there too. I'm a lot better now, like I said I would.
Author Leandro Posted December 25, 2010 Author Posted December 25, 2010 I just wanted to wish every one a Merry Christmas!! Be careful when driving!
Author Leandro Posted December 27, 2010 Author Posted December 27, 2010 (edited) Well today is another bad day for me people. . I was fine all day till now. Not a word from the ex on Christmas, just like I said. My friend from the chatting room helped me put a list of ten things that were bad about my ex. I tried to fight against them and pretty much excuse her from them, but in the end they were right. I hope. Here: 1. She was cheap. 2. Took the relationship for granted. 3. Wishy Washy. 4. Treated you like a baby. 5. Stressed you out. 6. Not organized. 7. Talked to other men. 8. Didn’t communicate. 9. A cold biotch during the breakup. 10. Emotionally abusive. And I just said the things, my friend actually typed the list out the way it is. I was just such a mess a hour ago. I still miss her a lot, but I don't know why. She left me for him, so why should I worry and still care about her. And I still have a lot of anger stored in me. And today makes 4 months of NC. I had to go threw a calender to figure it out. I hope this doesn't bring anyone down. I love this song!! Even though it's a love song . I’m here Just for you now I’m here To calm you Just keep in touch And give Love you Baby I love you I need you Love you That day I’ve loved you I need you so Yea, i know the lyrics don't make sense, but it does when it's being played. Sad kinda. I hope one day, knowing that it's all dedicated to one lucky girl (NOT MY EX!!!), that I can hear that song and smile. Edited December 27, 2010 by Leandro
january2010 Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 I'm sorry you're having a bad day. I think that if your ex had contacted you, that would probably have set you back even more. I know it's hurtful when you think that she's getting on with her life and you wonder if she even cares that you're upset, but I think you know that maintaining NC on both sides is the best way to move forward. Hope your New Year is looking up. Will be back home tonight so hope to log into the chatroom. Have been staying with family and didn't want to hog the PC too much.
Author Leandro Posted December 27, 2010 Author Posted December 27, 2010 but I think you know that maintaining NC on both sides is the best way to move forward. Yea and that's why I'm sticking to it. Hope your New Year is looking up. Will be back home tonight so hope to log into the chatroom. Have been staying with family and didn't want to hog the PC too much. LOL, I'll see you when you get back.
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 Another bad night for me. I'm getting kind of tired of it. The last text I got from her still burns in my mind, and that was 4 months ago. I still blame myself for the breakup, but a lot of people say it's not my fault. Hard to believe when you're the dumpee. Sorry, just ranting a bit.
january2010 Posted December 30, 2010 Posted December 30, 2010 It's not your fault. And one day you will believe it.
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 It's not your fault. And one day you will believe it. Well until then, I'll still blame myself. Don't let me bring you down Jan!! You're very strong!!
january2010 Posted December 30, 2010 Posted December 30, 2010 I remember my first love and the pain that came with it. You know you will get over this and that it just takes time.
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 I remember my first love and the pain that came with it. You know you will get over this and that it just takes time. I know. January is going to be a tough month for me. I'm going to have to pick up my brothers and sister from school for the whole month. That's a whole month that I could drive by her or see her kissing him at her car. Going to be a tough month Jan. Just like you.
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 You will be okay. LOL, I really hope so. I know you will for sure! Sorry I'm not in the chat room. My internet is so bad that it kicks me like every 10 minutes.
january2010 Posted December 30, 2010 Posted December 30, 2010 It's always darkest before the dawn, as they say.
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 LOL, true. Time to watch "married with children" and eat some BAKED cookies!!! LOL, get it?
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 Lol, no you don't That's what that grin is for.
Author Leandro Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 LOL yea I know. I need to hit the bed. I keep getting yelled at for staying up so late. I also sleep in till 1 or 2 in the afternoon. That's not good .
Author Leandro Posted January 1, 2011 Author Posted January 1, 2011 It's not. Get thee to bed! And where are you missy?? You haven't been in the chat room today. I don't care if it's 3 a.m. there .
Akumark Posted January 1, 2011 Posted January 1, 2011 I liked your log, it gave me courage to stick to NC again! Keep it up man you are doing what you need to do!
Author Leandro Posted January 1, 2011 Author Posted January 1, 2011 I liked your log, it gave me courage to stick to NC again! Keep it up man you are doing what you need to do! I just read a bunch of posts when I first joined. Read others logs. Read logs of people who don't even come here anymore. I learn from their mistakes. Just read and learn.
Author Leandro Posted January 1, 2011 Author Posted January 1, 2011 Well it's 2011 down here!!!! YAYYYY . Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Years!!! Might be a hour or day late for some, but I don't care. . Texas beats all . I've seen a lot of people come and go. Ohno89, QN, Rouse, college, User, jasmin, and many many more. Hope they and everyone has a great year. .
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