SarahC Posted September 20, 2010 Posted September 20, 2010 Why do men have an amazing habit of making out EVERYTHING is our fault? Or do women do it too? I dunno. Anyway - brief backgroud. Been with bf for 15 months. He has commitment issues. Never wants marriage/children. I have been married before and i have an 11 year old son. He is 41, i am 35. He drinks A LOT. I suffer with mental health problems, so i don't work. Agoraphobia/panic attacks/anxiety/ i have BDD, eating disorders, low self esteem and zero confidence!!!! So, we don't live together and quite honestly, i wouldn't want to. I like my house, he likes his house. We see each other at the weekends and maybe twice in the week, so we're not on top of each other, we have our space. Recently he's had a week off work (in fact, he's still on holiday) and me, if i was "normal" and i didn't see my bf much during the working week, when i was off, i would make it a priority to see them as much as possible. Noooo - not my bf. HE WANTS HIS TIME OUT! Yesterday, he came up with the line "You're hard work, i need to recharge my batteries". Riiiiight. I see him after work on a Tuesday from 6pm until bedtime, Thursday from 8pm until bedtime, Saturday 3pm until Sunday. SO NOT MUCH! This actually made me feel like a sack of poo. Am i THAT demanding in the few hours we see each other? I THINK NOT! My mental health issues don't even pop up in that time, it's only if i have to go out do i get panicky, but he knew this about me at the time. We were lying in bed yesterday morning (baring in mind i'd only seen him on Saturday) and he says "I'm staying at home tonight". This made me a little panicky, because right now, my mother is away on holiday, so if in the case of me having a full blown panic attack, whereas she'd usually help me out, if he's at hime, he can't because he'd be drunk. Anyway, this erupted into a massive row, him calling me selfish...blah blah blah. We managed to carry on with our day(ish), we went to my friends, and on the way home at 1pm, i asked him what time he was staying until (knowing he wanted to sleep at home that night), he said "I am dropping you off now"...at 1pm in the afternoon??? Please tell me honestly? Am i being selfish? Am i expecting too much? This relationship is on the road to nowhere anyway.... ...but despite all this, he has helped me with my problems - a lot. I do feel that he still very much lives a single life, and i would like to have a man i can depend on, not financially, just someone i can call if i need to, but on 'his time out days' i don't/won't call him. Plus, whats the point, he'd only be pis*ed up.
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