I just don't feel like trying.

[Mattock5656]

Sorry for the rant, although these past three years...have been interesting nevertheless and don't get me wrong that I learned alot. But it seems I can't attract anyone relationship wise if my life depended on it.

 

It just seems like with every female comes into my life, whether I make it to date 2 or whatever, just doesn't seem to work out. Its either, their too emotional screwed-up, have kids (I don't mind kids, until later on) taken(seems like a big one, the second I try to hint towards a interest, they blow me off somehow) or simply I'm not interested in them.

 

I just don't understand sometimes, I am get called ,"great guy" ,"great catch" etc. I'm starting to think these things are told to me, to make me feel better. I meet some girl at work, and she seemed fun, but I wasn't feeling it as much. But she is single, as I looked on her facebook and I text her, and she like, "Hey whats up" and the first thing shes says, "Hey I wanna add you as my brother on my facebook." I'm like wtf, I'm always the brother, best friend etc. I am only good enough for that, but the second I show romantic interest towards that person is not interested. I always seemed to be friend zoned etc.

 

I have come a long way a fews ago, I still have some confidence problems from time to time. I do not let people run me over, its sometimes I don't feel like approaching women, and a lot times I can't seem to figure out the women's hints that they give off. I am pretty horrible at those hints, but the second, I think to myself, "Oh good, a potential partner, I get shot down" And it makes it so god damn difficult, because I am a blunt person and I need to be told things sometimes but instead I have to guess.

 

I am a hard worker, and work at Wal-mart to pay for my UNI which I am 1 year off from my Bachelors degree. I am majoring in Linguistics and already speak a fair amount of German. I have traveled to Europe etc. I have a strong passion for flying, and have a lot of great qualities I think. I think I'm average physical attraction, and lost 3 pounds or so around my waist. I am not fat, but I could use some toning which is coming great along. Probably my strongest ability is to make people laugh, and I can pretty much make anyone laugh. I have a really weird twisted humor but I'm good at using it. But it seems it is not good enough. Another thing about Wal-mart is its a horrible job to work at, but a job is a job. And I work a majority of the time and picking women at this kind of job is just horrible.

 

Honestly, it has gotten to the point, where I do not see myself with anybody for a long time. Everyone else around me is getting into relationships and such but I'm stuck alone. How in the hell do I raise my confidence from repeated failure? The days where I think I am making progress with the opposite sex, I get shafted in the ass by something else. I just don't feel trying anymore. I tell myself, "well it will come when I least expect it" but it never does and I end up thinking about it anyways which it becomes the expected. I just had one real girlfriend for three months and I'm thinking it was more of a fling. I feel nobody wants me as lame as it sounds. And the more I hold this off, then I won't be gaining any experience for the relationship realm therefore making less of a suitable partner. Maybe I give off a bad aura?

 

I dunno, sorry for random jumble of text..hopefully you can follow it. Btw, I am 21. I know its young but it bothers me from time to time.

Edited August 27, 2010 by Mattock5656

[paleblue]

sometimes ya just gotta say f it

 

forget those lines you hear about when you least expect it. and if its true, they just ruined it for you because now that’s what you;ll be thinking every chick you meet.

 

youre just frustrated cause you’re a good guy and you see retards out there with chicks. us guys have to learn to let go and turn off the I care switch. im 38, and ive been pretty much single the last two years, by choice. been on a bunch of dates. but beginning to feel like I am stuck in some nether world void. I don’t want to be single, but yet I cant get myself to get interested in any of them. it doesn’t make sense to me. feels like this is never going to end. but they say nothing ever stays the same. so I guess looking back from when I was 21 to now, they are right. it doesn’t stay the same. and I am counting on that for the future. I remember I was single for a long time, like 5 years, from 19 to 24, and then I was in relationships that consumed me for the next 12 years. now its back to single for awhile I guess. things will change. you cant mark it on a calendar or anything. its just a shift in consciousness somehow. its weird how it happens.

[TouchedByViolet]

Your situation sounds nearly identical to mine. Somedays I quit, and somedays I feel the drive.... whatever the day i just want to get lucky! One of these days things will workout in our favors.

 

Life is strange.