tigressA Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 More of a rant than anything else. I know nothing but time will get rid of this. I hate that I feel so 'hung up' on C, the last guy I dated. I haven't had contact with him since the email exchange, and we dated for little more than a month, but I still think of him quite often. I don't sit around doing nothing but sighing over him; I've been busier than ever. It's like he's a bad habit I'm trying to kick, like cigarettes. I know he's bad for me, but the thoughts of him, and us together, are stubborn. They don't want to leave. I haven't felt like this about someone after things ended with them in a good long while. At least a year. I don't like it. I was so used to being like "Ah well, another one bites the dust", being so dismissive. I became so good at processing it and being over it in a week or less, often in just a day or two. This isn't like that. I've tried to be like that in this case but it just hasn't happened. Ugh. I feel frustrated particularly because I know he isn't right for me, and because we weren't together for very long at all. I feel like these thoughts are just wasting space and time, but I can't stop them. At the very least, I haven't contacted him. That's something.
Gattica Posted August 14, 2010 Posted August 14, 2010 I understand how you feel. I feel very similarly about the last person I was dating. The problem is that I have to speak to him at work. Thankfully, it is mainly just on the phone. This week he has progressed to asking me how my weekend was...I replied fine and then he gave me details about his. Today he asked me what was new and I just responded...life. He then went on to ask me about the problems I was having with my vehicle (which started when we were dating and were fixed after things ended between us), and then said, "It's your birthday tomorrow, right...happy birthday." I thanked him and transferred his call to its destination. It is very hard to not think about him a lot because of our contact at work. I don't want to be thinking about him. I don't understand why he feels the need to ask me personal questions when I have told him to keep things work related. Anywho, didn't mean to hijack your thread. I just know how you are feeling and it is sooo frustrating!
Author tigressA Posted August 14, 2010 Author Posted August 14, 2010 (edited) Nah, you didn't hijack. I'm not even sure what I'm looking for in terms of posting this. Guess I just wanted to get it off my chest. It is good to know other people can relate. He did call me yesterday. I didn't answer and he'd left a voicemail. Wanting to know how I was doing, what was going on, said he'd been thinking of me...blah blah. On one hand it was annoying because I'm trying to forget him; on the other it was...welcome, in a way. Edited August 14, 2010 by tigressA
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