Randi-Chan Posted August 11, 2010 Posted August 11, 2010 So, my wife and I are legally separated...divorce will be final soon , I hope. So far we are very amicable. We have also agreed to date other people but stbxh asked that I not be brazen about it especially when she is around since it apparently still hurts her...Kinda interesting, considering she is a serial cheater. My xOM/MM (now divorced) and I, as I have mentioned in other posts broke up in the Spring...but we still talk sometimes. She wants me back...but I feel that I need a new start...fresh start...with someone new... It has been quite a discouraging summer in terms of dating...the women who have asked me out are colleagues who are married! Hmm...are women really this vulturous? I think they asked me out not because I am a knocked out...but because I am separated and thus must need a woman... and the flipside to this are well-meaning friends who seem to know a girl or two who is "perfect" for me...c'mon...what are the chances of a blind date being a hit....ugh... Finally, I recently met this wonderful girl...well-spoken, highly educated, passionate about life..and HOT ( I know, so juvenile...lol). I am fast falling for this girl right? But I am trying to keep my cool...haha... We try to touch bases every day as much as we can-we both have very demanding jobs and arranging time to spend together is quite a feat...nobody's fault , of course...still when he does not call-even when I am unable to pick up the call-I feel like I miss her so much-yikes! I like seeing that there is a missed call on my cell phone and it was from him...go figure....I need to grow up...or be "cooler" about this...LOL.. Anyway, so tonight we were talking on the phone and she gets a call from her work...emergency...so she tells me , she will call me right back...and I wait and wait and wait-seemed like a long time...and told myself...nope DO NOT CALL HER! well..I succumbed to my inner stalker and called...I let the phone ring twice and hung up. I hated that I did that....UGHHHHHH....anyway, he did call me back and apologized for making me wait-but by then, I was in tears and didnt feel like talking....I don't know whether I was mad that he made me wait for a relatively long time...or mad at myself for not having the patience..or just embarrassed for being such a nut-case....now I do not know what to say to her IF she calls me back.... My gosh, I have not been single since I was 17...and I have only had two relationships-my stbxh and my xOM....this single life..I don't know about this....
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