Should I give him more time?

[nolagurl07]

So I had dated this guy for about a year. Four months ago I lied to him about something pretty big but not to intentionally hurt him but basically to avoid a fight. Plus I was scared to tell him the truth as well. I finally told him the truth about a week or 2 after I had lied. I cried begged called a million times everything i could think of. It didnt work it drove him away. We split up for 3 months and he dated another gurl. I didnt date anyone because I spent all that time beating myself up for lying to someone I had loved and I didnt understand it. During our time apart, I sent him a text every now and then telling him im sorry and hoping for forgiveness. he didnt answer at first but eventually he started texting back saying he missed me too and he forgave me.

About a month ago, we agreed to have lunch because he called me one night and said he ended it with her about a week before and wanted to see if we could work things out. We been hanging out for a month now and things have been great but we never actually sat down and talked about everything. I never told him why I lied to him because I never knew myself I just knew I was sorry. This past weekend was my birthday and we were trying to make plans but he didnt know if he had to work. He called me 5 days ago and we got in a huge fight and he basically said he wants to trust me but he doesnt and his roommate thinks he should find someone better than me. I cried on the phone and he said stop crying and then said he had to go.

The next day he texted me saying he had to work this weekend and he was sorry. I texted him back and said I understand its ok i know u need some time to urself just dont shut me out completely. He texted back Ok. i was sad cuz he never told me happy bday and we havent spoken since that day. I started thinking about everything and why I lied and how much I cared etc. I decided to write him a letter explaining everything why I lied what made me fall in love with him how I dont want to lose him but Im willing to let him be if its what he really wanted and that I want him to be happy just like we were happy. I think he wouldnt of come back if he didnt care he would of just stayed with the gurl he dated when we were apart.

I delivered the letter yesterday afternoon and I sent him a text saying hope ur weekends going well i wrote u a letter it explains everything i was too scared to say read it wen u can let me know if u want to talk later. He never responded. I know its only the day after but I guess im just trying to get advice was telling him id let him go the right thing to do. I just want to talk to him and tell him i wanna fight for us. Do you think he knows that by now? How long should I give him to contact me. Its been 5 days but i just gave him the letter last night. I felt the letter was good because it caused me to tell the truth about everything without having to worry about crying so much and not getting the words out. should i just let him be..what do you think about the situation do you think we have hope?