alwaysinluv Posted July 14, 2010 Posted July 14, 2010 (edited) I got out of an 11-year relationship 14 months ago. About a 1 1/2 months ago, I ran into my first love from 20 years ago at a club. We had a very rough relationship. We were both young and ignorant. Throughout the 20 years I would see him here and there and have even hung out with him with no romantic interest whatsoever even though I have thought about him periodically and have dreamt with him for the past 20 years. That night at the club I felt something different. He had just broken up with his girlfriend of 10 years and was also single. That night I knew he felt something different too and sat next to me the whole night. Before he left, he asked me for my number (which is what I wanted) and gave me a huge hug. To make a very long story shorter, we ended up hanging out and getting intimate. The next day I felt guilty and angry, especially since I felt that he was cold and mean and ran off, so I sent him a nasty text and he called the next day enraged asking why I would ruin such an amazing night by saying those things to him and asked me never to call him again. We didn't speak for a month. One night I had a dream about his dad who had died from cancer and decided to text him the next day to tell him; his immediate response was, I haven't stopped thinking about you. That led to a series of texts and us hooking back up. This time it was different, he was a kinder, more considerate person and he didn't run off, he ended spending the next 2 weekends with me going out and talking about our past and just having fun. He said he didn't want a girlfriend which I understand because his break-up is so fresh. I could feel by the way he looked at me and the things he said and did and showing up unexpectedly at places that he knew I would be at, that he felt something too. It's not something I imagined because he has never been the type of man that played games or said what you wanted to hear; he has always been blunt and too honest whether you like it or not and he knew he had me, so he didn't have to say anything. Our 2nd time together, we talked about us and how he was sorry for how he treated me and said I was his first love too; he said that our break-up was the hardest on him and that he had always loved me. He said it wasn't as strong as before, but that he had always loved me. Then he just stopped calling alltogether. My intuition tells me that he's not just a jerk who just wanted a one night stand, (been there unfortunately), because actions speak louder than words and that maybe he got scared that he was moving too fast and feeling more than what he expected and doesn't want to be hurt. Also spending the last 2 weeknds with someone is more than just a friendship, so realizing that he maybe backed off. What hurts me is that he has not called or sent me a text in 4 days and has not been man enough to tell me the truth. Do I send him a light text, do I ask him what happened or do I just leave it be and give him his space. I can't stop thinking about him and never expected to feel this way. The thing is, I know that I know he feels the same. Edited July 14, 2010 by alwaysinluv
Serenitynow Posted July 14, 2010 Posted July 14, 2010 That night I knew he felt something different too and sat next to me the whole night. I think females get too caught up in "the moment" and their dreamy side takes over. Half of your story is peppered with "I know he felt this way or that way". You cant be 100% sure of anything. And if you spend enough time here, you will see how many times a week people "think" the other person is so into them, only to find that they dissapear leaveing you with only questions. What happened to him being so upfront and honest ? .
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