HeartOnSleeve Posted November 5, 2012 Posted November 5, 2012 Amayana...I am in the same boat. I'm so stressed with work that all I want to do is get out and for it to be tomorrow already.
spareohs Posted November 6, 2012 Posted November 6, 2012 Literally tomorrow!!!! So excited I had no idea I could miss someone so much!! Yay! That's super exciting!
Carenth Posted November 7, 2012 Posted November 7, 2012 Flying out later today, starting to officially freak out! *deep breaths* 2
amayana Posted November 7, 2012 Posted November 7, 2012 Amayana...I am in the same boat. I'm so stressed with work that all I want to do is get out and for it to be tomorrow already. Have a wonderful time with your SO! And don't let work get to you too much
spareohs Posted November 8, 2012 Posted November 8, 2012 Two weeks! The next 14 days need to hurry up and get over with. 2
cerridwen Posted November 8, 2012 Posted November 8, 2012 43 days. Did time stop? Funny how it flies when it comes to things like holidays ("Is it going to be Thanksgiving already?!") But when it comes to seeing our LD S.O.s, time seems to just crawl. 3
highwaychile Posted November 9, 2012 Posted November 9, 2012 Just 30 more days. One month and then I'll never have to do this distance again! I just wish the term would hurry up and be over... 2
amayana Posted November 9, 2012 Posted November 9, 2012 7 days, oh the joy!!! Can't wait for my very first Thanksgiving Celebration with one of my two favourite men. (The other one being Daddy, of course haha!!) But still so much work to do until I get on that plane, OMG!! 2
skang Posted November 10, 2012 Posted November 10, 2012 7 days, oh the joy!!! Can't wait for my very first Thanksgiving Celebration with one of my two favourite men. (The other one being Daddy, of course haha!!) But still so much work to do until I get on that plane, OMG!! One week as well. She's staying with me for 9 days! 3
ladyabstrused Posted November 10, 2012 Posted November 10, 2012 16 days. I'm so super nerve-wreckingly excited. :bunny: 2
Ani Posted November 11, 2012 Posted November 11, 2012 Next Monday excited but at the same time I'm not. Lately I've been thinking about ending it.
PepperPotts Posted November 11, 2012 Posted November 11, 2012 45 days... but then we have twelve together. I need it!! 2
ana0pera Posted November 11, 2012 Posted November 11, 2012 29 DAYS! can't believe it's less than a month now!!!!! 3
ladyabstrused Posted November 12, 2012 Posted November 12, 2012 Next Monday excited but at the same time I'm not. Lately I've been thinking about ending it. Eh? Ani.. what happened? 1
Aquamelon Posted November 12, 2012 Posted November 12, 2012 Just saw him a week ago and miss him so much but... new countdown! 60 days! 1
befreckled Posted November 12, 2012 Posted November 12, 2012 1st Countdown: 9 days to our annual vacation together. 2nd Countdown: 92 days to our 1st day of forever and the end of long distance! 7
CherryT Posted November 12, 2012 Posted November 12, 2012 1st Countdown: 9 days to our annual vacation together. 2nd Countdown: 92 days to our 1st day of forever and the end of long distance! Woohoo!!! Congrats on closing the distance! I'm hoping for this in a year or so! 2
spareohs Posted November 12, 2012 Posted November 12, 2012 10 days!! 10 days!! 10 days!! I can't wait to pick him up at the airport! I may be just a little bit excited. 3
Ani Posted November 13, 2012 Posted November 13, 2012 Eh? Ani.. what happened? To be completely honest, I feel she isn't really into the relationship anymore. I give her everything I can. I ask her every once in a while if she wants to watch a movie and she will say no. If she wants to do something she will say no. She has became distant and I just don't feel part of her life anymore. She doesn't tell me anything about her day or talk anymore. It's usually me doing the talking. This last Week on Sunday my cousin was murdered. He was stabbed in the heart. I was on the phone with her and I was sobbing and well she told me I should man up. I hanged up the phone instantly. She told me the same when my dad had a heart attack and was in the hospital for two days. My dad is the only thing I have left. My mother passed away from cancer. She has told me she doesn't think we're going to last. She says we are different. These constant arguments didnt start happening until she began hanging out with this new group of friends. She says some very hurtful stuff and I'm tired of crying. Heck I'm crying while I type this. Everyday I wake up not sure if were going to be together the next day. She has broken up with me a few times in 2 months but each time she comes back sobbing saying she's sorry. The last time was on Saturday and it just feels weird, I feel distant. I'm not happy. I feel lonely. I have no one to talk to. Idk I'm at the point were I'm getting tired of crying, of having all the responsibilities in my relationship. I feel like I'm the girl in the relationship for god sakes. I don't know. She's everything to me and I feel like I'm nothing to her. I feel more as a friend than a boyfriend. Today she was talking about me being there next week and what she wants to do. She's excited about seeing me but I'm not. I..I feel dead inside.
amayana Posted November 14, 2012 Posted November 14, 2012 (edited) 1st Countdown: 9 days to our annual vacation together. 2nd Countdown: 92 days to our 1st day of forever and the end of long distance! Oooh, I love reading this stuff! I'm sure those 90 days will fly by like nothing! Edited November 14, 2012 by amayana
ladyabstrused Posted November 15, 2012 Posted November 15, 2012 To be completely honest, I feel she isn't really into the relationship anymore. I give her everything I can. I ask her every once in a while if she wants to watch a movie and she will say no. If she wants to do something she will say no. She has became distant and I just don't feel part of her life anymore. She doesn't tell me anything about her day or talk anymore. It's usually me doing the talking. This last Week on Sunday my cousin was murdered. He was stabbed in the heart. I was on the phone with her and I was sobbing and well she told me I should man up. I hanged up the phone instantly. She told me the same when my dad had a heart attack and was in the hospital for two days. My dad is the only thing I have left. My mother passed away from cancer. She has told me she doesn't think we're going to last. She says we are different. These constant arguments didnt start happening until she began hanging out with this new group of friends. She says some very hurtful stuff and I'm tired of crying. Heck I'm crying while I type this. Everyday I wake up not sure if were going to be together the next day. She has broken up with me a few times in 2 months but each time she comes back sobbing saying she's sorry. The last time was on Saturday and it just feels weird, I feel distant. I'm not happy. I feel lonely. I have no one to talk to. Idk I'm at the point were I'm getting tired of crying, of having all the responsibilities in my relationship. I feel like I'm the girl in the relationship for god sakes. I don't know. She's everything to me and I feel like I'm nothing to her. I feel more as a friend than a boyfriend. Today she was talking about me being there next week and what she wants to do. She's excited about seeing me but I'm not. I..I feel dead inside. Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry for your loss Ani. I read that, how she reacted to you when you needed her support and it broke my heart..how could she be so insensitive? But how are you holding up? This doesn't sound like a positive relationship. What I'm really upset to see is how it has changed you... not for the better. You were more cheerful and positive before this. I can understand why now you want to end the relationship. I honestly don't blame you and actually am in full support of it. You're a good person who would devote your time and effort to the girl you love. Any girl would be lucky to have you. And I'm sure there are girls out there who would totally appreciate you the way you are and the things that you do for them. Please be strong. I hope you'll feel better soon. My PM inbox is always open if you need a friend to talk to. *hugs* 1
JWRP Posted November 15, 2012 Posted November 15, 2012 On a lighter note, I wanted somewhere to brag, we are ending our distance in 30 days!!! I'm flying there the day after Thanksgiving to finish transferring to her university. We both can't believe how lucky we are for external things to be working out<3. Love overpowers everything in it's way<333 2
HeavenOrHell Posted November 15, 2012 Posted November 15, 2012 I'm so sorry Ani, this is awful, I felt pretty peed off when I read that she told you to 'man up, that's appalling, and really quite cruel of her, what a loving partner would have/should have done is have comforted you and supported you and told you they were there for you, this I what I would have done if you were my partner (((((((hugs)))))) I think you know you'd be better off out of this relationship, and she's already said she doesn't think it will last. You deserve much more than she can give you. This is far too unsettling for you and making you miserable. Please don't stay with her out of loneliness, it won't work. Start trying to build some good friendships, so you have other people to talk to, I couldn't bear just having my partner to talk to, we all need friends as well as partners. Feel free to PM anytime, you could start a thread of your own where you could get some support as well To be completely honest, I feel she isn't really into the relationship anymore. I give her everything I can. I ask her every once in a while if she wants to watch a movie and she will say no. If she wants to do something she will say no. She has became distant and I just don't feel part of her life anymore. She doesn't tell me anything about her day or talk anymore. It's usually me doing the talking. This last Week on Sunday my cousin was murdered. He was stabbed in the heart. I was on the phone with her and I was sobbing and well she told me I should man up. I hanged up the phone instantly. She told me the same when my dad had a heart attack and was in the hospital for two days. My dad is the only thing I have left. My mother passed away from cancer. She has told me she doesn't think we're going to last. She says we are different. These constant arguments didnt start happening until she began hanging out with this new group of friends. She says some very hurtful stuff and I'm tired of crying. Heck I'm crying while I type this. Everyday I wake up not sure if were going to be together the next day. She has broken up with me a few times in 2 months but each time she comes back sobbing saying she's sorry. The last time was on Saturday and it just feels weird, I feel distant. I'm not happy. I feel lonely. I have no one to talk to. Idk I'm at the point were I'm getting tired of crying, of having all the responsibilities in my relationship. I feel like I'm the girl in the relationship for god sakes. I don't know. She's everything to me and I feel like I'm nothing to her. I feel more as a friend than a boyfriend. Today she was talking about me being there next week and what she wants to do. She's excited about seeing me but I'm not. I..I feel dead inside. 2
Ani Posted November 15, 2012 Posted November 15, 2012 Thing is I know she's bipolar. When we began dating that was the first thing she told me. She's medically diagnosed. I know she doesn't mean things but idk at times it's to much. Idk what to do I love her a lot and I know she loves me to but when she gets these random episodes she's heartless.
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