[zep52]

Hi Everyone

Well here i am again, girlfriend split up with me back in October, See this post www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?threadid=51841

Then just before Xmas she contacts me and hey presto were back together, see this post http://www.loveshack.org/forums/show...threadid=54540

so here i am two weeks into split No: 2 how do i feel ?

Well im hurt, feel used, feel stupid, and every now and then angry but the biggest feeling is of frustration, she has not spoke to me in any way since the row not even to say it is now over, yeah i know all about this No Contact game we play whilst engaged in the dance but been there done that,
We are both in our forties, there are young children involved, she must be aware of how this is affecting all involved ??????

The first time this happened i was shocked, but chalked it down to bad luck, yep it really hurt but when SHE contacted me and we got back together i let myself (as did she temporarily) believe we were truly meant to be, 100%

She has my heart, and i do believe she loves me, but how much of this can i stand before it drags me under, its affecting my work, cant sleep, all the things u guys reading this are familiar with, i know that i must let go, but i cant let go !!!

I have every faith that at some point in the future, i will hear from her, but i also know that as soon as i do i will be smitten again and will happily dance into the flames ready to burn , three months of this emotional roller coaster and no nearer sanity than at the beginning, why cant she commit, why does she need me in her life if only to let me get close to her kids, and her family, and so the dance goes on

Every nite i read posts on this site and the pain people feel and inflict in the name of love chokes me up, u would think it so simple but when there are hearts involved it can and does so often get so messy and hurtfull so if anyone can give me advice other than what i know already, i thank you now, but in all truth i think that this love thing is seldom about answers, its about feelings, and going with your heart, thats what im going to do, and where ever it leads, i will i fear be dancing there...