Man I am so angry at the moment, so much crap loading on me! This rage seems to be coming from everything and everybody, including this BAND were forming where apparently my input dosent matter! ROAR! The source of all this is that guy who broke me and "angela" (thats her name) up! I want to kill him, Im tired of his little smarta** remarks.
But on a different note, Angela, today she almost walked right by me, and I got her attention by throwing a notebook at her (not hard, playful) Then she waited for me and I walked right by her (note I am in a rage) and she followed telling me to come back, I declined and continued. I saw her alot today and she told me she was mad at me, and that shes not going to talk to me anymore untill I said I was sorry, so I did, she said "no". I followed her, playing around with her, but I find myself more frustrated more more AND MORE! I want to slaughter a few people.
I even went into her class, and stood there for a while (still acting foolish), Im in the apitimy of rage. She laughed along with the fun of course, but her friend that she supposedly hated is back in the picture again, Im going to open rage on her if it gets to what I think its going to be, her being a stupid little girl again. Im prepared to open and destroy. I dont care anymore, this better not turn worse, because in the mood Im in, I will unleash.
Adam, calm your little butt down!!!
firstly, what are you so upset about? do angela have another boyfriend?
i must be reading your forums wrong, i thought that you and angela were hitting it off!? you have to calm down, until you give me more INFO, to go on...
holla!
p.s. maybe you're getting too deep into this girl, just stand from afar....for a little bit. go out with another girl, just for fun! let angela know that you have other priorities, besides her..what do you think on this?? I BET IT'LL GRAB HER ATTENTION..
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Well shes being all like this: "Im not talking to you." (everytime I see her) so finally Im starting to say "ok" and I believe she said "alright" but according to my msn shes still available to my list, so I think shes just wanting attention. Also Im getting info that she flirts with other guys so its not worth it. So Im just gonna let her do whatever she wants, she was once close if she wants it to happen all the power to her.
Am I done with her, coming very VERY close to it. I look at her, Im like 'wait' what am I doing, and shes being all mean to me and stuff, I think its cause that girl who is supposedly her best friend is back, shes not really mean to me unless SHES AROUND!!! Ive noticed. So forget that crap. So she needs to come to me if its to happen cause Im gone.
besides I got another one infact 2.....and somebody today told me I was 'cute' for no impaticular reason.....interesting eh?
She was out in town tonight asking for me, this is also the same day when I said "ok" to her constant sayings of "I dont want to talk to you anymore" so shes looking for me.....what to do?
ADAM, I'M PUTTING MYSELF IN YOUR SITUATION....AND IF I WERE YOU, I'D KEEP ON MOVING AND WALK ON BY ANGELA. SHE'S A FAKE! OBVIOUSLY, THIS LITTLE GIRL ISN'T READY FOR WHAT YOU'RE READY FOR, SHE'S PLAYING THE FIELD. SO, IF YOU WANT TO STAND IN LINE WITH THE OTHER BOYS THAT SHE'S PLAYING THE FIELD WITH...JUST GO AHEAD AND CHOOSE YOUR POSITION..CUZ' SHE'S PLAYING A GAME! SHE AIN'T SERIOUS A/B YOU. SO JUST ACCEPT THIS AND MOVE ON, ADAM. STOP HURTING YOURSELF, SHE AIN'T WORTH IT.
SO, IF I WERE IN YOUR MOCKINSONS, I'D JUST WALK ON BY THIS ONE..B/C SHE ISN'T WORTH THE HEARTACHE.
UNLESS YOU LIKE TO BE USED? YEP! ANGELA'S USING YOU BECAUSE YOU ALREADY SAID THAT SHE ISN'T JUST SHOWING ATTENTION TO YOU. SO, ADAM....IF YOU LIKE BEING PLAYED LIKE A FOOL, JUST STAY IN "THE GAME" WITH ANGELA.
IF YOU HAVE OTHER WOMEN TO DATE, THEN WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???? GO FOR IT!!! WHY AREN'T YOU PLAYING THE FIELD LIKE ANGELA IS? ARE YOU THAT LOVE-STRUCK??? TO BE TRUTHFUL, ADAM, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TRUE LOVE IS. OK, YOU'RE A CHRISTIAN, RIGHT? OK, GOD GAVE UP HIS SON FOR US, THE ONES HE LOVE. SO LOVE IS SELF-SACRIFICING. IT DON'T SOUND LIKE ANGELA'S SACRIFICING NOTHING! SHE ONLY LOVE HERSELF, BECAUSE SHE SHO' DON'T LOVE ALL THE GUYS SHE'S PLAYING! BECAUSE SHE ISN'T PROTECTING ANYONE'S FEELINGS, ADAM...YOU'RE HEARING THAT SHE'S SWEET ON OTHER BOYS, BESIDES YOU...DO SHE CARE? H*LL NO!!!! SHE'S DOING IT (FLIRTING) IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS, WHOM SHE KNOW WILL TELL YOU, A/B HER FLIRTING WITH OTHER GUYS!
LISTEN ADAM, WHEN YOU'VE GIVEN YOURSELF SOME "FREE" TIME AWAY FROM ANGELA, JUST TO THINK AND REFLECT ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH HER...THEN I BET YOU WON'T BE SO HEAD-OVER-HEELS WITH ANGELA AFTER YOU SEE HOW SHE'S DOGGING YOU OUT. YES! SHE'S A DAWG (ROOF!).
SEE, WHEN I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE WHO ISN'T SHOWING ME THE ATTENTION AND LOVE THAT I NEED, I STEP BACK AND GIVE MYSELF SOME TIME TO CLEARLY SEE WHAT'S GOING ON, AND WHEN I REALLY SEE THAT I AIN'T GETTING 50%, THEN I'M MOVIN ON! I DON'T HAVE TIME TO WASTE WITH A 2-TIMER, OR SOMEONE WHO ISN'T WILLING TO GO 50-50 WITH ME! SH*TTTTTTTTTTTT, THAT'S WHY I LEFT THE OTHER GUY I TOLD YOU ABOUT, HE WASN'T GIVING ME WHAT I NEED AND HE WASN'T READY FOR WHAT I'M READY FOR (WHICH IS A FULFILLING RELATIONSHIP), SO I'M OUT OF HIS LIFE.....AND I BET I'LL GET THE FULFILLMENT THAT I NEED PRETTY SOON, BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING FOR LESS! GOD ONLY HAS THE BEST FOR HIS CHILDREN, ADAM...AND I'M TIRED OF HANGING IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT ISN'T ALL THAT I NEED OR WANT, B/C I JUST HAVE FAITH THAT GOD ONLY HAS THE BEST IN STORE FOR ME (AND YOU)!
SO, I'M LEAVING ON THAT NOTE...YOU CAN DECIDE IF YOU WANT TO HANG IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT ISN'T EVERYTHING YOU WANT/NEED IT TO BE. LIFE IS TOO D*MN SHORT, MY FRIEND.
P.S. AND ADAM I'M JUST TELLING U THIS (THE TRUTH), B/C YOU DESERVE ONLY THE BEST. DON'T GO FOR LESS, THIS GIRL KNOW YOU DESERVE TO BE TREATED BETTER, SO JUST KICK HER TO THE CURB IF SHE KEEPS MESSING UP. YOU SOUND LIKE YOU'RE READY FOR A GOOD GIRL, WHO ONLY LIKES YOU....WELL, IT DON'T SOUND LIKE IT'S OL' ANGELA...JUST DATE AROUND AND SEE WHAT ELSE IS ON THE MENU!
I'D RATHER BE BY MYSELF, THAN WITH SOMEONE WHO ISN'T WILLING TO GO THE FULL ROUTE FOR ME (50-50) , IT JUST WON'T WORK. I NEED FULFILLMENT! NOTHING ELSE WILL DO.
Im very well aware of whats happening now; And Im not going back to her; Im done with her. Did I not clarify that? So now shes gonna get what she wanted, she asked me to go...Im gone.
And now she goes around asking people where Im at, indeed. I think Ill disappear more and more, shes no longer in my thoughts.
I'm proud of you, Adam. I'm also sorry that Angela hurt you. She's the fool, not you. Yes, let her ask for you, she will find out that she's been taking you for granted, and she'll know that she missed out on a real and true relationship.
But Adam, I have one ? for ya......why are you really mad at her? Is it because she flirts with other guys? ....Adam, remember that you and Angela never made an agreement to go steady again, now DID YOU? So, you really don't have a reason to be putting her completely out of your life. Maybe she thought that you and her are just friends? You 2 never did express your love to each other, neither did you ask her back as your girlfriend. Did you do this, Adam? NO!
So, are you going to ask her to go steady with you, or not? Do you not care for her anymore? Do you think she'll continue flirting with other guys, if you 2 have a relationship again?
PLS KEEP ME POSTED, AND LET ME KNOW YOUR ANSWERS...PEACE
Nope, no longer will she hold in my life, no more. Im gone, as I can already see she can't go a day without thinking of loosing me, because on the same day when I told her "ok, fine" she went out into town looking for me. Im going to leave her with her thoughts just as you have described, and when she realizes (exactly what you said) that she is taking me for granted.
So I keep on, keeping on, in theroy she will come back, but Im going to put up the biggest battle against her that I can, make her realize exactly what has been going on and ask her what shes doing.
Lines have been drawn
Last edited by Dookie2004; 26th October 2003 at 10:13 AM..
hey guys im lindsay i live in crosby up north and i messed up with my girl bad.and theres no way of fixing it i messed up so bad that she went straight.and here i am my first love the one i wanted to marry and have a life with.she did indeed give me one last chance but i blew it i said id change and juest said it because i wanted her baCK .this time i mean it.i cant let her go i miss her so much.im scared and im herting so bad.i juest want her back juest one last chance to prove im not who i was .its like i never cared enough i got upset when she went home i was always jelous and so conceded .i pushed so hard and held on so tight.and she slipped threw my fingers.shes everything to me the love of my life.my heart tells me to try . i dont know what to do. HELP ME
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St. Anger round' my neck
Then she waited for me and I walked right by her (note I am in a rage) and she followed telling me to come back, I declined and continued. I saw her alot today and she told me she was mad at me, and that shes not going to talk to me anymore untill I said I was sorry, so I did, she said "no". I followed her, playing around with her, but I find myself more frustrated more more AND MORE! I want to slaughter a few people.
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Im Gone
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