wanthim4eva Posted February 18, 2007 Posted February 18, 2007 dont worry.. im gonna be doing all of that. ive made it 3 days without contacting him so there is no way im gonna ruin that now as its the longest i have EVER gone with not contacting him in the nearly 2 years we have been together... i can imagine he is pretty shocked by now. also i have found out a few bad things last night about him and i know its really gonna help me to let him go. l was lying in bed thinkin what a total b***ard he is and i feel like i dont even know who he really is. i feel i have moved on a tiny step already. i was so shocked to find it all out... i wish i could tell you but im scared of him reading this and knowing i know (he knows i posted on this forum a couple of times months n months back so worried in case he checks on the off chance i have posted again.. though i think if he's back on the weed, thats the last thing he will think of) my friend has put me in touch with a guy who is going through the same thing as me right now.. he has split with someone 3-4 weeks ago n has a broken heart 2. so last night we were talking on msn for ages about how we felt n how we are gonna fight to let them go. it was nice speaking to someone who was on EXACTLY the same wavelength as me and could really understand my pain. also the same friend who introduced us split up with her BF yesterday after reading sexual messages on her BF's phone ... so she is feeling the same aswell. i know its sounds awful but im kinda glad i have a couple of ppl to talk to that are feeling exactly the same. i still miss him so much....and i think at this stage i prob would take him back if he came knocking on the door begging me to take him back n saying sorry for hurting me. but that will never happen while he got mummykins poisoning his mind against me further and telling him he'd be scummy to come back to me
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