oppath Posted March 2, 2007 Posted March 2, 2007 Davis, it's good you are angry and it's good you know expressing it is irrational! We all have those feelings. I admire you for never acting on it. Some of my ex's friends think poorly of me since I did express rage when I was ****ed over. Lesson learned. You don't want to be in my situation and have the awkward anxiety of having to see your ex's friends, who at one point were my friends of a lessor degree, and feel they think you are an ass. On the other hand, there is still a lot of mind reading going on there! It's not like they'll give me a hard time. Point is, anger is good. Find an outlet. Just don't act on it irrationally.
Davis Posted March 2, 2007 Posted March 2, 2007 Thanks Oppath. Just trying to work through this stuff. No, I won't act on it at all because I don't want to go to jail, have legal trouble, break NC or let her think she still matters. The first time she cheated and broke up with me I was shocked because she went back to her ex druggie loser and I was depressed. This time, after the intial few weeks I have just been angry which is a bit unusual because I usually turn it inwards and get depressed. As you've probably read before, I tell myself "I hate that fckn #%&*(#" about ten times a day. Guess I'm angry because everything seemed great on New Years, she gave me no warning, never said she was unhappy, never said I was not the guy she wanted, totally lied to me and went out and cheated on me two days after she slept with me with a guy I know and then denied everything. Guess I'm disappointed that she's not who or what I thought. Disappointed that she has no morals. Angry that she treated me like sh**t. All this said, I do realize that she is not the type of person that I want. But it still makes me mad. I have been trying to funnel my anger into my work outs.
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