Learning from experiences

[Santiago 17]

There was a huge snowstorm where I live, and I didn't have to work for a couple days. I really had some time to think and came up with some really good stuff (at least for me personally). All my life (well at least the 23 years I have lived so far) I have been wondering what has kept me from true happiness, b/c I my life is pretty good and I should be happy. I think that it all boils down to one thing FEAR. I have always made choices, mistakes, and acted a certain way b/c I was afraid of what might happen if I didn't. For example, if I don't get a good job my girlfriend will leave me for someone better, or if I don't stay in really good shape I won't bag an attractive enough wife, or if I don't start a retirement fund now I will not be able to live how I want when I am older, or if I say what I really think I will look weird or dumb, etc...... I now realize that life is too short to live in fear. While this fear has drove me to overachieve in life and accomplish great things, it has also kept me form the one thing I truly want, HAPPINESS. While I don't plan on selling my house, moving to some third world paradise, and living off the land. I do think I will start to enjoy my life more, take what comes to me, enjoy what and who I have, and understand that there are some things that you just cannot do anything about except make the best of them. I still plan on living a productive and accomplished life, but I will replace the fear that once drove me with something else, not sure what yet though?

 

Just some food for thought

[notmakingsense]

Great insight for someone so young.... you are lucky to recognize this now, because you have such a long life ahead of you to make the best out of it.

[Santiago 17]

I just cannot believe some people. My ex who is partly responsible for about four of the worst months of my life sent me an e-mail wishing me a happy valentines day? What the f***, I sent her a couple about two months ago putting things on a good note and saying that I wanted to be friends, but I meant like if we bump into one another I want to be civil, not contact or anything. I mean, like I really want to hear from her on V-day and see a pic of her and her new "love of her life" (b/c it pops up with her e-mail), and she didn't wish me a merry xmas, or happy new year so why now. I am so glad that I didn't check that e-mail until today b/c that would have really pissed me off on V-day. Oh well, I can't do a damn thing about it but, erase it and not respond. I just don't understand, who sends their ex who they know was really messed up about the break a message on v-day when you haven't talked in months? However, I really like how I could just erase it and actually laugh at it b/c a couple of months ago I would have probably ran to the store and gotten her flowers and some big dumb bear or something.

[notmakingsense]

She send you a note that included a picture with her new bf??? What a b*tch! I doubt she's trying to be mean -- but I do think she's trying to get to you somehow. Good job on just deleting and not-responding. A stupid-ass note like that doesn't deserve a response.