AriaIncognito Posted February 14, 2007 Posted February 14, 2007 You know I've been thinking way too much about the whole Valentines Day thing tomorrow. About how my ex and I have been split for 2 weeks, and how I wish he'd make some grand gesture on Valentines Day to "win me back". Our would be 1 year anniversary is Thursday as well, so the romantic happy endings are swirling around in my head faster than sh*t going down a toilet. I have all these images in my head that he'll send flowers or something and finally say the words I've longed to hear for an entire year. But that won't happen, and I'll be crushed yet again. I wish Hollywood didn't exist and put these ideas into my head. This sh*t doesn't happen in reality, it only happens in movies. I wish I could convince my heart of that. It's about to be re-broken. As for the ex, well he's been in constant contact with me, which is totally selfish of him and while I know that, I've allowed it. I know, NC NC NC. I know. I just, well, suck.
HennyPenny Posted February 14, 2007 Posted February 14, 2007 I went through this. He'd go on and on about how much he loved me and wanted me back. Stupid Me would think "Ok, Valentine's Day is coming up. I bet he pulls out all the stops. After all, he won't shut the hell up about how much he loves me and misses me. Now he make a grand gesture to illustrate how much." Unless he's an idiot. I'd get a little excited and think of how I'd react to the dozen roses, the big box of chocolate, the romantic card. Then I'd tell myself I was a moron for getting excited over a stupid Hallmark holiday. But still - it will be so nice to have evidence of how much he adores me. So I would go out and buy him something really nice. I was lucky to get a freaking card. When I'd ask him why he didn't feel the need to bother (while I fought back the stupid tears that inevitably would begin flowing) he would tell me that Valentine's Day was a bunch of consumeristic hooey and that he was surprised a sensible, reasonably intelligent woman like me would fall for all the bullcrap advertising. It sucked. Us women love that crap. Why is this hard to understand? It's a simple thing. Valentine's Day Sucks!
Author AriaIncognito Posted February 14, 2007 Author Posted February 14, 2007 HennyPenny, It's cuz we are girls and deep down most of us probably romanticize things. At least yours admitted love. Mine never did. Mine didn't even commit to me. We were together a year off and on, and not once did he use the word girlfriend, let alone the words, I love you. I told him I loved him, but only when we broke up. I never felt I could say it with him for fear he'd run. I know, I should have kicked his ass to the curb long before I did, but dammit, he's a great person and will someday make a great husband should he choose to be happy and commit to someone. I just wish that it was going to be me. This sucks. I miss him. I miss us. But i dont miss feeling like half a girlfriend.
norajane Posted February 14, 2007 Posted February 14, 2007 Us women love that crap. Why is this hard to understand? It's a simple thing. It's true! It should be the easiest thing in the world for men to understand - it's spelled out for them for weeks ahead of time. I hate Hollywood movies, too. They make you believe everything will all work out if you just tell each other how you really feel.
HennyPenny Posted February 14, 2007 Posted February 14, 2007 It sucks having a broken heart on Valentine's Day (even though it's a STUPID holiday). I sound like a real bitter hag, but the truth is that I still have hope. Evidently, there are people out there who enjoy this holiday. Somewhere...
Guest Posted February 14, 2007 Posted February 14, 2007 Last Valentines Day my life was in a horrible mess (not much worse than now though!) I spent the day prior shopping, bought myself a beautiful outfit which included a new hot pink cashmere sweater. I took myself to and incredible luncheon then bought myself jewelry! I actually had a great day and got hit on at lunch (but ofcourse not by whom I wanted). Fast forward to this year, still with the same guy but the day won't be nearly as fun as obviously it was not meant to be. TREAT YOURSELF! Noone can make you as happy as you! I had great fun last year and when I told a group of girl friends what I had done they all ROLLED! Actually the best V day ever! Your day, make of it what you will!
alasia Posted February 14, 2007 Posted February 14, 2007 but dammit, he's a great person and will someday make a great husband should he choose to be happy and commit to someone. I just wish that it was going to be me. This sucks. I miss him. I miss us. But i dont miss feeling like half a girlfriend. Just how I feel about my ex. He has a lot to work on - he prefers it when he doesn't have to think about anyone but himself, he seems to not be able to stay away from the pub whenever he has a day off work (although he's only in there for 2-3 hours then he comes home), he's too dependent on his mother...actually a lot of the negative points I was going to type about him, aren't that bad at all. Anyway he has got potential to be a great boyfriend - he always tells you he loves you (had that a few times a day, through text and in person), he is capable of affection but needs a little encouragement, he's generous and kind and good looking with amazing green-blue eyes, but he doesn't show half of those good points becasue he just doesn't think to make the effort. When I was with him, I felt like I was putting 100% in and he was only giving half; if he ever finds someone he truly connects with and wants to make changes for, he'll be an amazing partner. I wish that person was me, but we argued too much and now he has no feelings for me at all; in fact, yesterday he said he never wanted to see me again He also said if we hadn't argued so much, we probably would have stayed together forever (or the forseeable future, anyway), which really upset me. If he thinks that, then how can he say in the next breath that he doesn't want to see me again and we don't get on?!
Author AriaIncognito Posted February 14, 2007 Author Posted February 14, 2007 My ex emailed me Happy Valentines Day. Yipee. (note sarcasm) I asked him what was so happy about it lol. No grand gesture, not that I thought there would be. We are iced in up here in the northeast and home bound for the time being.
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