hopeto Posted January 31, 2007 Posted January 31, 2007 Hey guys and girls. I am a little beter today and I am trying to take it a day at a time. I think it just hit home cause my 6 year old had an emotional overload this week and it was terrible. I lost it. I have a Question that I would like to run by ya. I have found this place, husband said he hated me!!! tells everyone else he hates me!!!!! but then he tells me he loves me????? any way. I am very scared. I have pretty much excepted the fact he does not want me but the scarest thing is living on my own. I have found this place. it is beautiful. 71/2 acres and it is fenced for the horses I have. then at least an acre is fenced for the dogs. room for us and the animals!!! (me and daughter) but there is a string I cant cut. seems like I cant live with him and I cant live without him. even though he feels the way he does. I am able to move in anytime I need to and it is perfect for me and my daughter. she will have a club house already built, trampoline the school bus will pick her up in our drive way. she will go to one of the best school districts, room to run and play but the catch is no kids in the neborhood. cause it is on acrage. she is an only child and has her little friends come and play every day. I am scared she will get lonley and depressed and I am scared to death to make that step. Husband came in and talked to me after he read my letter and all he said was I that I have not tried to help him get over his addiction. (porn) he said that all I did was tell his family and yayayaya. I told his family hopeing they would tell him to get some help but that was a fat chance in where it will never be cold. He is taking advice from his family that he sould not go get help because that could be used against him in court when it would look much better for him. I tried to get him to go before we even dicided to "D" and he told his family that he just did not love me anymore and that he need no cousling cause he was a man and men are different than women. That men dont need help the work it out on thier on. IN MY BOOK it takes a man to know when he has a problem and can say I need help!! I love him and I would have stayed misserable for him just to be with him but he does not want it. so I cant make him love me. anyway getting way off course. should I take this house?? should I go ahead and make that move?? I am scared to death. it is a matter of time before he files bankruptcy and we will have to move anyway! he has already said he is moving in with his father and step mom and I would have to fend for myself but he keeps comming back to me and giving me mixed singnals??? I mean what do I do?? He said to me last night he would help me if I wanted to move out? what is that?? almost like asking me are you sure you want to leave? I did say that was what I wanted only cause I am sure that is what he wants. but he keeps playing mind games. what do I do ?? what do ya'll think??? any input would be so very helpful.
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