Kamille Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 Long story short: I was still holding out a flame for a guy who ripped my heart out in September. We were starting to date, the connection was great and that's when his ex-girlfriend decided that she had changed her mind, she was still lin love with him, she wanted him back. You know, that ex-girlfriend, the only woman he could imagine himself ever being with ever. The One. So he left me to go back to her and it was a really tough pill to swallow but I had ignored a bunch of red flags (such as the fact he talked about her on our first date) and obviously the timing was all skewed since he was trying to tell himself he was over her but wasn't. REBOUND. But I couldn't get him out of my head. The only thing that made sense to me was that he would come back to me. Well as Fourth Chances would have it, this one didn't work out. We both move a lot so we were no longer in the same city. A little bit before Christmas, exactly at the moment when I was doing much better about the whole thing, he started writing more often and for awhile we were chatting frequently. And then suddenly, nothing. He came on-line yesterday and started a chat. We chatted awhile and he eventually came out with : i met a really cool girl last week. My heart sank to the pit of my stomach and fortunately my boss made an afterhours call because of some work emergency so I had the perfect reason to sign off. Since then wow! I am experiencing strong feelings of freedom! That is actually what I needed to hear to finally move on. That he wasn't coming back. And suddenly it's like I have lucidity glasses on and I can see that we were not meant to be together. I finally accept it and I finally think that if he ever wants me back, he'll have to work for it.
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